Hello Dirty Birdies,
First off I wanted to thank everyone for all the comments and love on my last blog post! Being apart of this website for so many years now I feel so fortunate to have so many beautiful friends in my life. Thank you all so much from the bottom of my heart. This blog is along one also it's pretty deep, so I will not take offense if you just browse the pictures. But if you take the time to read I really do thank you <3.
I know.... long time no talk.... This February was a very difficult month for me. One of the hardest months financially in. all the years I have danced. A combination of the economy recession and working different shifts than usual. I had a lot of time to myself, I did a lot of thinking and reflecting. It's a hard thing for people who have always thought of the glass half full to suddenly feel like it's half empty. A lot of tears were shed and a lot of time was spent in bed. Depression is a cruel mistress.
I'm starting to feel better slowly though. Almost 3 months without alcohol and I have been hitting the gym regularly for 2 months now. I am feeling better in my skin again which is a huge step. My favorite pair of jeans almost fit again! I am so happy about that! Hmmm :) Being happy about something is wonderful!
These 2 photos above were taken last summer by a photographer named Andrew Kaiser. @venus introduced us. I am just finding these images now lost in buried emails. I have already slimmed down so much from last summer. When I don't drink I feel better all the way around.
So on Instagram and Twitter I kept mentioning the Anime binge... A lot of people were inquiring so here is the whole story!
Last Wednesday night I was lying in my bed watching Dragon Ball Z, an old anime favorite of mine. I remembered how much I enjoyed geeking out on anime binges when I was younger. I then realized I always watch the same anime shows. Sailor Moon, Gundam Wing, Dragon Ball (Z/GT) were among the favorites. I decided I would find a new show to watch and enjoy to take my mind of things... something new and exciting. I looked up some shoujo anime recommendations and I found "Itazura na kiss" (which was amazing couldn't stop watching it). This lead to a week long anime binge which made me discover one of the best animes (maybe my new favorite) I have ever seen "Marmalade Boy". Even though this anime came out in 1994 I truly believe the classics are always better. I fell in love with all of the characters and the plot line. I couldn't stop watching it. I was also so very sad when it ended. I did discover though that a sequel manga to the series was released last year. Only 2 chapters have been scanned into English though.... super bummer sauce!
After "Marmalade Boy" ended I watched "Fruits Basket" which the series started out very dull and boring but by the end it was very enjoyable. Sadly there was only 26 episodes out of 136 chapters of the manga though. I decided after reading reviews of the manga to read the entire thing so I could catch missing key plot points and such. I am so happy I read the whole manga series! It was the first manga I had read in years and it was so good! I spent one whole day in bed reading the whole thing. It was a great series. Then reality kicked in.... I had spent a whole week neglecting everything (but going to work) to binge on anime. It was time to snap back into reality!
I decided for future anime enjoyment I would treat myself like a little kid and give myself a time limit of my anime usage. I just started "Special A" last night and only watched 3 episodes and went to bed early. Does anyone have any good recommendations after I finish "Special A" ? I prefer shoujo style stories :).
So on the subject of real life....
I got some new photos back from one of my favorite local photographers to work with Danger Ninja! So here are a few!
I love them so much!
To Sum up other things
- Pups are good! Annoying and needy as ever! Follow their adventures on Instagram @furryjerksquad
-Work Wise: I am so happy it's March! Hopefully things will be picking up and looking up!
-Modeling Wise: I have a new set on Zivity! If you are a member check it out and vote! If you aren't a member and want a free 30 day trial PM me your email address! My print store is about to get a makeover and new prints will be available soon! I'm hoping to start modeling some more in the future! I've been trying to focus on me right now so I haven't been trying to book any shoots. Plus I have been working a lot the past 2 weeks.
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I'm going to bounce though! xoxoxo, Toxy
