totallysomeone

I feel indescribable right now. Like, I'm sad and I have no idea why. I feel like there's something missing from my life.

I feel like, I just have no idea where I'm going or what I'm doing. I hate my job, but I honestly have no idea what kind of job I could get that I wouldn't hate. Everything I used to love, like music and art, I feel like I've lost touch with. When I sit down to draw, I feel completely uninspired, and I haven't even so much as listened to anything new in, something like, a year or so.

I have no desire to love another human being in a romantic way, and I think my apathy is making me sad, as oximoronic as that may sound. I really just want to hang out with my friends and do stupid shit, and get into trouble all the time, but it's completely unreasonable of me to expect my friends, awesome as they may be, to just sit around waiting for me to be bored so they can hang out with me. It would've been nice if someone was around to just talk to tonight, though.

I don't know, I think I'm being unreasonable and melodramatic tonight for some reason.
I guess it just got to me tonight.