i've come to realize that i've been wasting my energy on harsh introspections instead of doing what needs to be done. i think this will be the last time i do that. i'm too hard on myself. with her, i can do anything. i know this and why i question myself, i don't know. in any event, it's over. we have each other and nothing...
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ash:
I love you so much 
fucking hell...
so it seems like my job isn't working out was well as expected. whatever. i put in for a transfer anyways, so fuck them all...
i've been reading this book called 'hunger' by knut hamsun. i think it's the most depressing thing i've ever read. the story centers around a starving writer and his plight in the 1890s in germany. i mean, this...
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so it seems like my job isn't working out was well as expected. whatever. i put in for a transfer anyways, so fuck them all...
i've been reading this book called 'hunger' by knut hamsun. i think it's the most depressing thing i've ever read. the story centers around a starving writer and his plight in the 1890s in germany. i mean, this...
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ash:
POOOOOOOOOOOOOOKIEEEEEEEEEEE
I hate to come to your journal and see how miserable you are, it pains me to no end. You keep saying this isnt where you thought you'd be at this age ... but circumstances have prevented that from happening and its NOT YOUR FAULT, so stop dwelling on that and look towards the future and what THAT holds for you ... *us*. Think abt what we dreamed abt ... here at this desk Im typing at right now. Think abt all those dreams that could come true ... within the next few months, even! It can happen, and it will. Focus on that and stop thinking abt what cannot change, it will only beat yourself up and do absolutely NOTHING good.
We learn from our mistakes, baby. You've got uber strength or else I wouldnt have chosen YOU as my soul mate. Use that strength to push forward and your attitude to just say "fuck em". Just ... FUCK THAT OTHER BULLSHIT.
I love you. And you've got something that a LOT of other ppl in this world would kill for ... if killing would get them what it is they want, but it wont. YOU'VE GOT THAT and its real, and nothing can change that or take it away from you. You're upset because of MONEY? Who cares abt MONEY, you can steal it, earn it, find it on the ground walking along one day ... who CARES abt THAT? You've got something a LOT more precious than money ...
I hate to come to your journal and see how miserable you are, it pains me to no end. You keep saying this isnt where you thought you'd be at this age ... but circumstances have prevented that from happening and its NOT YOUR FAULT, so stop dwelling on that and look towards the future and what THAT holds for you ... *us*. Think abt what we dreamed abt ... here at this desk Im typing at right now. Think abt all those dreams that could come true ... within the next few months, even! It can happen, and it will. Focus on that and stop thinking abt what cannot change, it will only beat yourself up and do absolutely NOTHING good.
We learn from our mistakes, baby. You've got uber strength or else I wouldnt have chosen YOU as my soul mate. Use that strength to push forward and your attitude to just say "fuck em". Just ... FUCK THAT OTHER BULLSHIT.
I love you. And you've got something that a LOT of other ppl in this world would kill for ... if killing would get them what it is they want, but it wont. YOU'VE GOT THAT and its real, and nothing can change that or take it away from you. You're upset because of MONEY? Who cares abt MONEY, you can steal it, earn it, find it on the ground walking along one day ... who CARES abt THAT? You've got something a LOT more precious than money ...
ash:
yes Im online
fuck... another sorry ass day...
the nuts and bolts of it...
spent most of my day making phone calls and arrangements for my upcoming move. blew $60 on fixing tire for piece of shit car. learned to hate my job even more. also learned that the morbidly obese overnight guard is independently wealthy... don't exactly know how to feel about that. spent all other free...
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the nuts and bolts of it...
spent most of my day making phone calls and arrangements for my upcoming move. blew $60 on fixing tire for piece of shit car. learned to hate my job even more. also learned that the morbidly obese overnight guard is independently wealthy... don't exactly know how to feel about that. spent all other free...
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ash:
::shoulder rub::
ash:
sounds like you've had a pretty exciting past couple of days. you ok sugar sugar? 
our baby boobilooo
our baby boobilooo
yesterday was a fucking horrible day... so i'll vent first before i say any else...
my roommate was an hour late picking me up from the airport. nothing serious, it just put me a bit behind. the didn't really start until i had a blowout on the way to work and no spare. so i was late to work. my coworker then proceeded to screw...
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my roommate was an hour late picking me up from the airport. nothing serious, it just put me a bit behind. the didn't really start until i had a blowout on the way to work and no spare. so i was late to work. my coworker then proceeded to screw...
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ash:
coward
mamabunny:
Good luck dude. Stay safe. If you need someone to talk to, you can always send me a message, aim:squifypixie
the world is not what i used to believe it was....