tortoiseavenger

Wow... What a day! Last night I got off work early cause I felt poopie... went to bed w/ Oni, got up... went to Marie's... and said, "Lets do something fun tonight..." She looked at me with doubt, b/c that is always what we say, yet the same old shit happens. Yet, we ended up going to Cedar Point! ABSOLUTELY KICK ASS! We walked on to almost everything... even Millennium Force was only like 15 minutes!!

The best part, however, was being there w/ Oni. I love her so much, and it's getting more intense by the day.

Every day my love for her feels like the best thing ever, yet... it gets better by the day. Suddenly this love has become the most important thing in my life... more important than how much money I spend, work, school... even living itself. Not to say that these things aren't still important, but this love has certainly taken a front seat. Very odd, very powerful, very scary.

Soon, she will be leaving me. In a year or so she will be going to Grad school, either in Rhode Island, North Carolina, or worst of all, Italy. How will I cope? I know I will get through if I truly believe that she is the one and that she will come back, and that we will continue our relationship and our lives together... but... how the fuck will that work? This scares me... what to do, what to do...

All I know is that this is the best thing that's ever happened to me, that I've never been happier, and that I want her in my life more than anything. If that takes waiting a year for her to go off and draw shit, then sobeit. I love her.