Yeah yeah yeah, I know it's been awhile. But here I am, back on the site, obsessively looking at billions of sets until I can hardly remember who's who to put in my favorites. This whole process is so fascinating - sometimes I look at the pictures for the fashion or hair. Sometimes to see what someone who calls herself "Scarlett" or "Aries" would look like. It's rare that I'm looking for sexual stimulation, and rare that I get it, but sometimes I'm taken aback by a sudden electricity running through my body - and it's rarely the pictures I'd expect it to be. Sometimes a look in the eye, sometimes an amazingly lit photo, almost always a photo where the model's clothed. Versions of desire ... it's interesting to watch myself watch these models, and to watch them watching me watch them (does that make sense?)
As for my life outside the site, things are a little surreal. I've been kind of numb since a big psychological revelation a week ago. My social life, once so fabulously exciting and important, is hardly motivation to get out of my jammies and turn off Buffy Season 2. Me and the boy are taking a break. I'm having trouble sleeping, interracting, eating well, exercising. Something's brewing ... I'm just not sure what yet.
I think Fractal's butterfly flapped its wings in my direction too.
At least I have a day off tomorrow to process, relax, maybe watch Real Sex at the home of my favorite SG? Mmmmm???
As for my life outside the site, things are a little surreal. I've been kind of numb since a big psychological revelation a week ago. My social life, once so fabulously exciting and important, is hardly motivation to get out of my jammies and turn off Buffy Season 2. Me and the boy are taking a break. I'm having trouble sleeping, interracting, eating well, exercising. Something's brewing ... I'm just not sure what yet.
I think Fractal's butterfly flapped its wings in my direction too.
At least I have a day off tomorrow to process, relax, maybe watch Real Sex at the home of my favorite SG? Mmmmm???
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And of course Ill come up to visit!
I just overexerted myself a little too much during my first week in LA, and the girls are also a lot more predatory here then Im used to. It was an eye opener and I think I was the deer in the headlights
Im in the process of reinvention too; Barbarella is the most important thing, but everything else is up for grabs. Part of the reinvention is making myself worthy of joining the ranks of your clan This means losing the gut, becoming one with the drum and learning how to coax fire to perform to my rhythmic whims.
Not an easy task, but I must start somewhere.