tormentedsleep

ever get paid, and then about 5 minutes later you're completely broke again?
this is the 6th pay day that has happened to me.
march 1st is the 3 month anniversary (hah. if u could call it that) of john not working.
sometimes this "being an adult" shit gets hard.
i've been broke since i moved out on my own, 2 and a half years ago.

i was thinking a lot today (i try not to do that), and i realized that this is not how i want to live my life.
i hate thinking that 30 years from now i'm going to look back and see how much i wasted my late teens/early twenties and hate myself for it.
regret is going to be extreme later in life.
fuck, regret is here now.

why didn't i take path a when i graduated?
why did i have to move out, become "independent", and get married at such an early age?
i'll admit it, my parents were right.
being older sucks.