Friday Mar 19, 2004

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sometimes you look into other people's lives and see a situation you covet, and sometimes you look into other people's lives and breathe a sigh of relief and think "thank fuck that's not my life." guess i'm looking to do more of the latter these days.

i need to keep a real, paper journal.. i'm sure someday i might be able to pull writing ideas from it, if for no other reason than i forget a lot of random things that seem really important, if just for a few fleeting moments.

i had a dream that i was jason falkner's girlfriend the other night. then i woke up and had to pee, so i did so very nonchalantly, trying not to get fixated on getting right back to sleep, so i could attempt to get back into the dream. i hate being interrupted during a dream that i am aware of, because i rarely ever remember my dreams. does that mean that my subconcious is severely underutilized?

do you ever look around sometimes and take stock of your life and feel truly alone? talking about one's situation rarely solves much, at least not tangibly.. so why is it that you seek others out to try and figure out how to solve things? strange. whatever
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deathcabforuglie:
i tried to have a real paper journal...but i started so many that i tried to have themes for each one..like one was going to be about girls and the exploits i've had with them..and another was going to be like...just poems and thoughts..and the other was a day-to-day thing..and i just got worn out trying to keep up with them all..
xoxo,
j
rottensockets:
Talking with other people tends to give you insist on whether or not your crazy. It's good to simply get the reaction out of someone as you say something.... reading one's face as you talk. At least that's why I seek people out. Talking helps a lot, just even to get things out in the open sometimes.... The relations you can get from other people that sometimes, you just don't expect.
I'd love to talk more.... but I'm too afraid to talk too much, let too much out and end up contradicting myself, as I always do. I don't know. I don't know a lot of things lately.
BTW, don't you have Sunday off? I open, so we should do something, if you do, because I'd love to see you.
(yuck that rhymed)

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