Kissing is the most amazing thing ever. There are so many different types of kisses and each has it's own language. It seems to me that however amazing sex can be, it always ruins everything. Sexual energy is all about the build up and once you bump uglies, it's just over. I think that's one reason that I cherish my intimate experiences with women so deeply. No matter how far we go or how many times we get off, that sexual energy never comes (no pun intended) to that abrupt halt. Unfortunately, at this moment, I'm talking about a man and I'm so afraid to ruin this perfect, almost sacred, thing that we have had. It's not that I don't want him. Obviously, I do, or the kisses wouldn't be so dynamic. But I'm afraid that giving in to that "want" will make it impossible to want each other this much again. But I also know that extending the desire for too long can kill it as well. He forces me to experience sensation in a way that I've never been able to before. So how do I not ruin it? How do I avoid acting in a way that will drag us back to where we were before? How do I hold on the the experience without desecrating it?
I think every now and then you need to stop and just kiss. for minutes, hours, whatever. do it with your eyes open. think about it. make out like fucking teenagers.
kissing is definitely the best thing in the world.
anyway, I don't know how you hang on to that. I guess that just like everything, you end up having to take a chance.
I've only been "With" this guy for a couple of weeks--we first kissed on New Year's, hung out a bit before that, and first met and became friends last May. I don't know how serious it's going to be, but I like it.