topaz

Kissing is the most amazing thing ever. There are so many different types of kisses and each has it's own language. It seems to me that however amazing sex can be, it always ruins everything. Sexual energy is all about the build up and once you bump uglies, it's just over. I think that's one reason that I cherish my intimate experiences with women so deeply. No matter how far we go or how many times we get off, that sexual energy never comes (no pun intended) to that abrupt halt. Unfortunately, at this moment, I'm talking about a man and I'm so afraid to ruin this perfect, almost sacred, thing that we have had. It's not that I don't want him. Obviously, I do, or the kisses wouldn't be so dynamic. But I'm afraid that giving in to that "want" will make it impossible to want each other this much again. But I also know that extending the desire for too long can kill it as well. He forces me to experience sensation in a way that I've never been able to before. So how do I not ruin it? How do I avoid acting in a way that will drag us back to where we were before? How do I hold on the the experience without desecrating it?