tool987ja

it seems like everytime i go into work, someone always has to talk shit behind my back, or anyone's. I hate my boss. she never has anything positive to say to me and constantly sticks me in sections where i walk out with $15 a night because i have no tables. and then she wonders why i'm upset and/or not enjoying my job. and then when i try to talk to her, she just yells at me.

basically i'm getting a new job.

and i hate how fake everyone is, it seems, even my "friends". douglas J is fun but i dont really feel like i've made any friends there. it's like straight out of high school and everyone is cliquey.

i have so many bills to pay and my credit is going to shit because i have no money.

don't even let me start about guys. absolutely none of them pay any attention to me and i feel like a complete loser hearing all of my friends having girlfriends or boyfriends.

i'm also miserable because i go to school 40 hours a week and work anywhere from 25-40 hours at applebees, hardly taking home any money.

i feel like i have no life. i'm so tired all the time and so upset/depressed that just little things set me off and make me cry. i feel pathetic. the past 4 times i've been at work i've left crying, whether it be my boss writing me up for some stupid shit like my "pants aren't nice enough" and telling me to buy new ones, or just being lectured on how to be "an adult".

i'm pretty sure i am one.

so im done bitching for now