today was a little bit better.
when I got to work we had received the sheers that we won in a contest from May. yay!!!! $200.00 scissors!!! for everone! oh and they are soo sharp...they cut like a hot knife though butter. tonight I was wipeing them off with my finger and the blades were closed and I sliced my finger!!!! thats sharp!!!!
Muddy Buddy is a race where two people complete a 6 mile course. one runs a mile while the other rides a bike a mile. Then you switch. A the end of each mile is an obstacle like a climbing wall or some such thing - it's fun.
1 step forward 3 steps back.
thats what I feel like sometimes. especially today.
I went to my sweeties last night for the first time in a week. and to my surprise he started smoking again. not only that he was acting kinda assy. he was making dinner and making tons of noise, throwing plates on the table, slamming shit around and what not. it... Read More
As a smoker (I know, I know) I have to say I'm biased about the smoker bit of your journal. Yes, I actually can imagine how awful it is for you to see someone you care about getting sucked back in. But at the same time, try to imagine how tough it is to give it up, especially in a month or a season which is, by your own admission, fraught with anniversaries and baggage. I had my horrific breakup in March, and I guarantee you that, if by next March I've given up, it'll be a struggle to keep me from the cigs, or the booze, or any mind altering substance within a mile of me. This has nothing to do with who HE is, just a perspective on how much of a crutch that little bit of nicotine can be, and a plea for you to not take that out of context.
As for the other stuff, I can't be honest and positive. I've seen too many instances of yelling between kids and parents for me to ever be ok with it. Personally, I cop out; I know it's so hard to raise kids, and I don't want to do it badly. If he's treating his son in a way that you deem inappropriate or even distasteful, that's an omen for your future life together. And the not calling when the day is off of work thing might be a sign as well. I don't know. I don't know the whole story, and I'd never pretend that I could give a reasoned verdict on the big picture. All I'll say is: these are warning signs. They may warn of nothing, but they may warn of something you'll be glad to pay attention to. Hmmmm. I feel like an ass for writing that, but it's what first occurred to me, so I'll post this now before I feel the urge to moderate myself. Hope all is well.
Sat suffering
I knew him when
Fair-weather friends of mine
Try not to think
I merely blink
Hope to wish away the lies...i..
Can you protect
Me when i'm wrecked
I pretend you're still alive
I....yeah....
(oooh....denied all....and tied all the lies)
I choose the day on damp and gray
Thick fog to hide our... Read More
yuppers, they're real. he's got huge chili's tattooed on as sideburns, lettering on his eyebrows, and stars all over the left side of his face. he's a brave guy, but i guess having a job as the tattooed man of coney island makes it a little easier. he's an awesome performer, too.
I'm currently crushing mint in lime juice and sweetner....I'm gonna make tequila mint mojitos...oh yeah baby!
its gonna be a nice night.
mmmmm....it's good!!!!
anyone in the Fitchburg MA area? I'll be at the Compound tonight....rippin it up...oh hell yeah!!!
I found an ugle varicose vain on my leg the other day...and today while tweezing my eyebrows outside...there's abunch of lil blonde ones that irk... Read More
what kind of asshole takes their paper shreader out onto the front porch and shreads documents and leaves the full trash barrel there? yeah...you've got it...a full barrel of paper shreads on a breezy day and no one there. not only that their cars aren't in the driveway. they do this type of stuff all the time. I'm always picking up their mail, newspapers, kids... Read More
last night I went to bed a little after 7, I planned ot watch tv till I fell asleep. I figured it'd be around midnight....wrong!! it was before 8:30. then I slept till about 9:30 today.
so i got up and did some of the chores I was gonna do last night...yeah, I was driving home thinking about everything I had to do, I decided... Read More
Oh, I feel your pain. My head feels like it's been stuffed with jello... lime, from the looks of what's coming out of my nose. God, I *hate* being sick.
I feel sad today. I have no idea why. I don't want to go to work. I want to go back to bed and sleep. I don't want to be aware of my sadness and sleep is a nice way of escaping it. or drinking which I can't do since I have to work.