today was a little bit better.
when I got to work we had received the sheers that we won in a contest from May. yay!!!! $200.00 scissors!!! for everone! oh and they are soo sharp...they cut like a hot knife though butter. tonight I was wipeing them off with my finger and the blades were closed and I sliced my finger!!!! thats sharp!!!!
I went to visit my sweetie at work. he wantded to know what was going on with me. I kinda had gotten into it with him this past weekend about "stuff". so I told him that its a tough time of year for me...blah blah blah. then I said that the cigg smoke was bugging me and usually I can deal with it better but with everything else going on I just couldn't seem to do it the other night. I asked for a kiss and he kinda shrugged it off saying something like I dunno....can you have a kiss....wtf???? then he wanted to know what else was bugging me...blah blah blah...so I got deeper into it. I told him that in mid July (of last yr) I told my ex I wanted a divorce & asked him to leave, and this is the same week as last year that he moved out...also yesterday was his Birthday. and in the next few weeks it'll be the times when we filed for divorce and went to court and got divorced. I kinda understimated how much of an effect it'd have on me. I didn't think I'd be as upset about it all, but since I'd been thinking about how I made those decisions and how I though that I was making the right choices and still hope they're the right choices, but here I am a year later and this is not how I ever expected my life to be. I never thoguht I'd be dealing with these emotions and hope to get past it and not have a repeat next year. its just been fucking with my head. I think he understood....it was really hard for me to put it all out there and I kinda felt like crying while I was saying it, but I managed to keep it together.
anyways, he asked me to come over saturday night, I was on the fence about going to suicide saturday down in Providence RI, but its a long-ish drive and I'm not positive I'd know anyone there + my exhusband is a big fan of the sasquash & the sickabillys (spelling???) and he's all buddy buddy with a sg. so I really don't care to bump into either of them there. so I told him that I'd come over.
I have to bring Dusty to Petco to get Rabies vaccinated sunday am, they wouldn't groom him cuz it was expired...GRRRR! and he's got a groom appt on monday am. hopefully he doesn't get sick from the vaccination...I've got meds ready in case he does. its still scary when ti happens though...his little head puffs up, his eyes swell closed, his tongue gets big and he starts gagging, while trying to rub his itchy little face all opver the carpet. not a pretty sight, they all seem to have that reaction the past few years, so needless to say i haven't had any of them vaccinated since January 2005.
ok off to browse and play on myspace for a bit.
oh and if I deleted you on myspace just hit me up with another friends request...I cleaned house and deleted a ton of people I didn't chat with much.
muah!
when I got to work we had received the sheers that we won in a contest from May. yay!!!! $200.00 scissors!!! for everone! oh and they are soo sharp...they cut like a hot knife though butter. tonight I was wipeing them off with my finger and the blades were closed and I sliced my finger!!!! thats sharp!!!!
I went to visit my sweetie at work. he wantded to know what was going on with me. I kinda had gotten into it with him this past weekend about "stuff". so I told him that its a tough time of year for me...blah blah blah. then I said that the cigg smoke was bugging me and usually I can deal with it better but with everything else going on I just couldn't seem to do it the other night. I asked for a kiss and he kinda shrugged it off saying something like I dunno....can you have a kiss....wtf???? then he wanted to know what else was bugging me...blah blah blah...so I got deeper into it. I told him that in mid July (of last yr) I told my ex I wanted a divorce & asked him to leave, and this is the same week as last year that he moved out...also yesterday was his Birthday. and in the next few weeks it'll be the times when we filed for divorce and went to court and got divorced. I kinda understimated how much of an effect it'd have on me. I didn't think I'd be as upset about it all, but since I'd been thinking about how I made those decisions and how I though that I was making the right choices and still hope they're the right choices, but here I am a year later and this is not how I ever expected my life to be. I never thoguht I'd be dealing with these emotions and hope to get past it and not have a repeat next year. its just been fucking with my head. I think he understood....it was really hard for me to put it all out there and I kinda felt like crying while I was saying it, but I managed to keep it together.
anyways, he asked me to come over saturday night, I was on the fence about going to suicide saturday down in Providence RI, but its a long-ish drive and I'm not positive I'd know anyone there + my exhusband is a big fan of the sasquash & the sickabillys (spelling???) and he's all buddy buddy with a sg. so I really don't care to bump into either of them there. so I told him that I'd come over.
I have to bring Dusty to Petco to get Rabies vaccinated sunday am, they wouldn't groom him cuz it was expired...GRRRR! and he's got a groom appt on monday am. hopefully he doesn't get sick from the vaccination...I've got meds ready in case he does. its still scary when ti happens though...his little head puffs up, his eyes swell closed, his tongue gets big and he starts gagging, while trying to rub his itchy little face all opver the carpet. not a pretty sight, they all seem to have that reaction the past few years, so needless to say i haven't had any of them vaccinated since January 2005.
ok off to browse and play on myspace for a bit.
oh and if I deleted you on myspace just hit me up with another friends request...I cleaned house and deleted a ton of people I didn't chat with much.
muah!VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
Yeah for $200 scissors.
-TM