I feel like an imaginary girlfriend.
he came over today and we had a spectacular day, we spent the whole day together just hanging out, we made lunch and grilled it, and dinner and grilled it, tooka nice walk with the dogs, I brought him to meet my Dad who lives down the street. everything was picture perfect. then I asked him waht he was doign tomorrow (Monday...Memorial day) he's not working, but he's spending the day at home with his parents, they're having other company over and his mom's coworkers for a BBQ. (I also said he could choose not to attend, which he said he has not choice)
now this has been a "hot spot" issue for us. we've been together nearly 2 months, and I have yet to meet any of his family. I've met co-workers and 1 friend, but thats it. I feel like his dark dirty secret. like I'm not important enough to bring home to meet the family. I've dated guys that I'd never bring home to meet family or even certain friends. this makes me feel like less of a person, like I'm not good enough. he claims he's told his family about me, but because of a certain situation his Mother doesn't want to meet me now. he also said she's jealous of me. so I started freaking out a bit and saying "WHY???" what kind of mother is jealous of their childs bf/gf? thats not normal to me. he's not her lover...he's her son.
so here I am feeling like crap.
agrument #2 the continuation of above:
he says he tries to divide his time equally between his job his family and me (and soon school when that starts back up). he's been having a really hard time with this...trying to make everyone happy. I keep saying and said it again tonight: "if you included me in things you do with your family it wouldn't be so difficult". but its not happening. he chooses not to make it happen. which makes me feel like I'm not worth it.
FUUUUCCCKK!!!!!
I'm better than this! I'm better than having to deal with this! I shouldn't be made to feel worthless.
on a side not the mofo called...he called me last night and I missed the call so I called back screaming stop fucking calling me. he called today and left a message saying he was sorry. then he called just a little while ago, so say he's sorry again, that he drove by my house today with his son. he wanted to stop, but there was a car in the driveway...Yeah that would've gone over like pork pie at a Muslum dinner. lets see who'd try to kill who...lol... good thing he didn't stop.
I need change....body mods...I dunno....change..
he came over today and we had a spectacular day, we spent the whole day together just hanging out, we made lunch and grilled it, and dinner and grilled it, tooka nice walk with the dogs, I brought him to meet my Dad who lives down the street. everything was picture perfect. then I asked him waht he was doign tomorrow (Monday...Memorial day) he's not working, but he's spending the day at home with his parents, they're having other company over and his mom's coworkers for a BBQ. (I also said he could choose not to attend, which he said he has not choice)
now this has been a "hot spot" issue for us. we've been together nearly 2 months, and I have yet to meet any of his family. I've met co-workers and 1 friend, but thats it. I feel like his dark dirty secret. like I'm not important enough to bring home to meet the family. I've dated guys that I'd never bring home to meet family or even certain friends. this makes me feel like less of a person, like I'm not good enough. he claims he's told his family about me, but because of a certain situation his Mother doesn't want to meet me now. he also said she's jealous of me. so I started freaking out a bit and saying "WHY???" what kind of mother is jealous of their childs bf/gf? thats not normal to me. he's not her lover...he's her son.
so here I am feeling like crap.
agrument #2 the continuation of above:
he says he tries to divide his time equally between his job his family and me (and soon school when that starts back up). he's been having a really hard time with this...trying to make everyone happy. I keep saying and said it again tonight: "if you included me in things you do with your family it wouldn't be so difficult". but its not happening. he chooses not to make it happen. which makes me feel like I'm not worth it.
FUUUUCCCKK!!!!!
I'm better than this! I'm better than having to deal with this! I shouldn't be made to feel worthless.
on a side not the mofo called...he called me last night and I missed the call so I called back screaming stop fucking calling me. he called today and left a message saying he was sorry. then he called just a little while ago, so say he's sorry again, that he drove by my house today with his son. he wanted to stop, but there was a car in the driveway...Yeah that would've gone over like pork pie at a Muslum dinner. lets see who'd try to kill who...lol... good thing he didn't stop.
I need change....body mods...I dunno....change..
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and i'm sorry to hear/read that you're having problems with your b/f =( i can kinda understand some of what he's saying, like about his mum being jealous of you (i know its wierd, but mothers often don't like having to share their time with their kids, especially if they're mummy's boys...) but that's no excuse to keep you from meeting them. you seem like a lovely girl, and quite honestly, i can't see any reason why he wouldn't want to introduce you to his parents...you seem like the kinda girlfriend that any guy would be proud to have on his arm.
anyways, i hope things work out for you =)
xox