tonia

i kinda started talking to this married man on line, and we were caming and stuff, and he tells me hes going to leave his wife in feb, then i found out that its all bullshit, and he also told me i was the only one that he was "cheating on his wife" with, then i found out, from my friend that he started flirting with her too...i am such a dumb ass, im just totally fucked off, i cant even be bothered writing in here but i just figured i would cos im kinda really depressed and have been down on myself for a week now, i dont know what to believe anymore, this net stuff is doing my head in, i just want to get off line and go crawl under a fuckin rock..bleh...why is it all the guys i meet are losers, married, or have gf's either that or their gay, i will die a spinster there is not one single guy out there that wants to be me..haha im so pathetic. , on top of that i just popped nearly 90 milligrams on codeine, and im starting to feel it, fuckin a i love that sinking feeling and feeling like youre floating as its about to sink in..., im going to the doctor to get anti anxiety pills i cant cope with this shit...