tomosnemesis

so much near loveliness...getting sets underway for eroticbpm and intensitygirls. eat your heart out SG. and good news of all good news!: I AM SPENDING NEW YEARS IN NEW HAMPSHIRE WITH MY DREAM GUY AND HIS GIRLFRIEND! i'm done having my orgasm now. my hours got big and then got small at work. the vs bitch screwed me out of that interview. here's hoping i...
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I just found out that my birthday is national AIDS day...wow, god has a sardonic sense of humor. so staind and lopro rocked...sevendust too i guess even though t3h 4r3 t3h su(k. Had a lovely evening with Mr. Stewart even with my bleeding back. I'm getting a few more hours at work and I'm still trying to get back in touch with the chick who...
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so i finally got my corset piercings last night. it was the most agonizing experience of my life. and it only got worse. i hurt so much all night that i couldn't move and kept bleeding everywhere. i took the laces out and it still felt like i had poisoned knives in my back. got they were so pretty, but i absolutely had to pull...
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i knew it was only a matter of time...for a lot of things. the missionaries tracked me down and just harassed me. they want me to go to church tomorrow (laughs hysterically) hell no. also a matter of time before mr. fantastic was all "dude, make out with my girlfriend" and mr. not so fantastic was all, "dude, play with me" and the other mr....
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things have calmed comfortably. i'm still sad and upset, but now i'm motivated. i want my independence back. i realize how much of myself i've lost in the last year. my writing has downward spiraled as has my art. speaking of which, i posted my first attempt at negative shadowing in my pics. now is time for me to reclaim myself.

updatimating:
having weird dreams. having good sex. have black hair now. getting it cut. need to submit me photos for nakedness on the net. need to write my insurance an bs letter. need to stop sleeping all the time. need to find new fucking job.
need a hug

did someone catch the plate on the barbituate that ran me over...ugh, i hate the emergency room. and right now i might hate my boyfriend just as much.
SGAZers...i'm banning myself from events until i can accept sobriety as a way of life. but i still love you all. rad party, cool people, furry animals. oh, i also hate being unconscious on someone elses bathroom...
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i am literally and absolutely penniless. all of my money is gone and now i am living on the generosity of others. i can take cash or credit using paypal

so i'm really really upset. i just want to kill everyone. i've stayed pretty doped up the last few days and plan on staying that way for a while. fuck everyone else. i need a goddamn break. i'm god's fucking whipping boy

david playing moonlight sonata makes me happy. today the oddest thing happened. i had the thought to kill myself (since i'm totally fucked right now) but i didn't want to even though right now has been the most appropriate time ever for me to consider it. because, well, i'm happy...that's why i said, "what the hell am i thinking" but yeah, i'm fucked. anyone got...
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