How long is it going to be before I have sex again?
Realistically? Probably about a year or so. I've made a vow of abstinence until September. I've been working out since this past october, but not as hard as I should be. I'm now devoting more of my personal time into working out, reading and brushing up on my Russian. It's already beed about 9 months since the last time I had sex, and you know, it just doesn't feel the same as it used to.
After I gave up riding BMX, photography school and all my friends to move with her and live together for a year and a half, my fiance cheated on me for 2 months and left me for another girl. This is just over 2 years ago. The wall around my heart is so thick, I'm pretty sure it's affected my libido to an all time low. That and I'm now trying to live out my childhood fantasy of becoming a Navy Seal. 6 more months until i'm eligible, thank god. It's time to seriously start cranking up the intensity of the working out, start swimming hardcore every day and abandon all social ties for the next 6 months until i go off to Coronado, Cali for another 6 months of training.
To think, this was once me:
Ever think you can't love again? I'm pretty hardcore edge and refuse to sleep with anyone until I'm in love because it just isn't the same.
Have I really lost it?
Realistically? Probably about a year or so. I've made a vow of abstinence until September. I've been working out since this past october, but not as hard as I should be. I'm now devoting more of my personal time into working out, reading and brushing up on my Russian. It's already beed about 9 months since the last time I had sex, and you know, it just doesn't feel the same as it used to.
After I gave up riding BMX, photography school and all my friends to move with her and live together for a year and a half, my fiance cheated on me for 2 months and left me for another girl. This is just over 2 years ago. The wall around my heart is so thick, I'm pretty sure it's affected my libido to an all time low. That and I'm now trying to live out my childhood fantasy of becoming a Navy Seal. 6 more months until i'm eligible, thank god. It's time to seriously start cranking up the intensity of the working out, start swimming hardcore every day and abandon all social ties for the next 6 months until i go off to Coronado, Cali for another 6 months of training.
To think, this was once me:
Ever think you can't love again? I'm pretty hardcore edge and refuse to sleep with anyone until I'm in love because it just isn't the same.
Have I really lost it?
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I am a firm believer that things happen for a reason. It's up to you to see what that reason is.
Sub or surface?