I had a night...
Got a call from Syd around 12:30 yesterday, and ended up spending the day, night, and today with him. Spent yesterday walking around Vernon Hill area, then headed over to Nate's. Saw a band practice, went back to Nate's, had a drink, and watched the sun rise thru the windows. Went to Extra-Mart at 5 in the morning to buy butts. We were wide awake, and had no ciggerattes.
Went to my house, so I could shower, get a bill, and pay it. Grabbed movies, and then headed to Syd's house so he could shower, got some KB, and spent the day smoking ourselves tired.
That's why I'm home around 10. He was tired, and I am sad that he is tired. I miss him already...
Now I sit here, typing away, drinking a tall glass of ice water and eating hersey kisses... Oh yay, they got almonds. And I'm thinking of going to bed soon. My shoulder is fucking killing me, and my hips hurt real bad.
I hate feeling like my friends hate me. I've tried to call Rae, but she doesn't pick up, or she does, and I ask if she wants company, and she says no. I just don't understand what I've done. I talked to Tinny, and she isn't mad at me. She understands what I am doing, and that I need to spend time with Syd, so whatever we have can, yay, grow...
I don't know... Maybe I am being paranoid, but I just don't feel that my friends like me anymore. I love them, and miss them, and it's not that I haven't tried to get them to come out with me. But they refuse. Afraid of change. I don't know. *la sigh* I hate feeling worthless....
G'd night everyone...
Got a call from Syd around 12:30 yesterday, and ended up spending the day, night, and today with him. Spent yesterday walking around Vernon Hill area, then headed over to Nate's. Saw a band practice, went back to Nate's, had a drink, and watched the sun rise thru the windows. Went to Extra-Mart at 5 in the morning to buy butts. We were wide awake, and had no ciggerattes.
Went to my house, so I could shower, get a bill, and pay it. Grabbed movies, and then headed to Syd's house so he could shower, got some KB, and spent the day smoking ourselves tired.
That's why I'm home around 10. He was tired, and I am sad that he is tired. I miss him already...
Now I sit here, typing away, drinking a tall glass of ice water and eating hersey kisses... Oh yay, they got almonds. And I'm thinking of going to bed soon. My shoulder is fucking killing me, and my hips hurt real bad.
I hate feeling like my friends hate me. I've tried to call Rae, but she doesn't pick up, or she does, and I ask if she wants company, and she says no. I just don't understand what I've done. I talked to Tinny, and she isn't mad at me. She understands what I am doing, and that I need to spend time with Syd, so whatever we have can, yay, grow...
I don't know... Maybe I am being paranoid, but I just don't feel that my friends like me anymore. I love them, and miss them, and it's not that I haven't tried to get them to come out with me. But they refuse. Afraid of change. I don't know. *la sigh* I hate feeling worthless....
G'd night everyone...