So it has been a long time since I have posted anything here. A few months prior, my then-girlfriend Amy and I suffered a miscarriage. I didn't know how to deal with it so I bottled it up and tried to forget it happened. I broke up with her and tried to replace her by talking to single moms on dating sites before dating a friend of a friend who was also a single mom. Recently I suffered a major mental meltdown. I realized that I still loved Amy and so I left my current girlfriend. I almost attempted suicide twice since October 1st. I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and am now on meds and taking part in therapy groups and am doing much better. Amy and I are now talking. I don't know if we'll get back together or not. She is engaged but isn't happy and still has feelings for me so I am hopeful. I am graduating with my associate in business, finally! I have already been accepted to a 4-year school and will start next month. I am majoring in Psychology this way I can use my experience and what I learn in school to help other who are struggling with mental illness. I guess that is all for now. I'll definitely have to come on here more often as there is still a lot going on.