titeh

rare update of life huh?
Got my burlesque Christmas party tonight. I was excited till earlier this week. Now I just couldn't care less. I'll go and smile and pretend like I am human for the night. But that's all. I just want one night where I sleep the whole night through. Not struggle to fall asleep, then wake up before dawn and lie there and pretend.
I want to hear, just to hear and know.
Reading stories about love and loss brings tears to my eyes.
Hearing a song 'you love me, but don't know who I am, so let me go' Fuck...
I miss him.