Hello hello my favourite cats and kittens! You may have noticed I’ve been a little absent from the site the last two months, and I have to say, I have truly missed this community and all the wonderful people that are a part of it. The last blog I posted was in February, and I do have to apologize for that, but life has been a little crazy for me so far this year. The last blog I posted I talked about splitting with my boyfriend of 4 years. I’m not going to get back into all that, but if you’re curious about it, just check out my last blog. When I posted it, I was staying in the guest bedroom of a friend and searching for a new place. Ever since I moved out of my mums at 18 I have lived with roommates or significant others, so I made the decision to live alone. I fucking love it. It’s been about two months now, and I am absolutely sure I made the right decision. At the time I signed my lease I had no bed, no couch, no computer, and no television. But I was all smiles signing my first completely independent lease, I knew all the rest would fall into place eventually. I am incredibly grateful to have friends that let me take up a room in their house for as long as I did, but after six weeks of living out of boxes, it felt great to have a place to call my own, and be reunited with my little fur balls. I spent my first few weeks sleeping on an air mattress, which if you’ve ever had to do for longer than a few days, you know how quickly that gets old. It was deflating every couple of hours and just when I felt like I was at my wits end, a friend called to say he was buying a new bed and would gladly deliver his gently used queen bed to me. I was over the moon. I couldn’t believe how incredibly thoughtful this gesture was. And not only did he deliver the bed to me, his wife brought me a bed frame, pillows, and all new bedding. Things were starting to look up, I was starting to feel like everything was finally getting back on track.
Two days after the bed was delivered I received a phone call informing me that my best friend of 14 years had passed away in her sleep. Everything just stopped. All the things I had been dealing with, a breakup, car troubles, moving, all of it suddenly seemed so trivial. Alicia was one of the brightest people I will ever know, and the world is a tremendously darker place without her in it. I don’t really want to rehash all the different emotions I went through in the weeks that followed, but I was lucky enough to have a job that let me take time off, and friends that would come over and cook for me and make sure I wasn’t just wasting away in bed. We went from girls to women together, and we should have become old ladies together, but I am at least so thankful that I was able to have her in my life, I will forever be a better person because of it. For a month, probably more, it took everything in me just to get out of bed, just to eat, just to go to work. The hurt is still there, and it always will be, but I am finally at a place where I don’t feel guilty about living my life. She would want me to smile, she would want me to keep going.
Needless to say, while going through all that, buying a couch, a computer, connecting internet all just fell by the wayside. Everything was just put on pause. Well last week, almost two months after finding out, I have pressed play. I took some money out of my savings and bought a laptop, and next week I’ll be plugged back into the interwebs. So that is why I have been so absent. Since I moved into my place in mid-February I have been using my phone data sparingly, and it’s not been until recently that I’ve even really felt like I was ready to blog about it at all. So thank you to everyone who has stuck by me and offered support, thank you to those who still follow me, and have given me such a warm welcome back. If you follow me on Instagram, you may have already know some of this. I made a couple posts about it awhile back, but I felt like I owed you guys a proper explanation to my absence.
I really have missed this place. Not just all the beautiful ladies, but all my favourite groups and threads, I miss getting book suggestions, and just chatting with all you wonderful people. SG really is the greatest corner of the internet.
Now, I have a lot of sets to catch up on, so I’m off to do a little creeping. Thank you again everyone! I love you all and I hope you all have been having a wonderful 2015!
Sorry this post was very much lacking on photos, I promise my next will have more visual updates. Because, as life goes, it hasn't been all bad.
