tiriel

So I hit a new low yesterday, one that I didn't know was possible. Though I went and talked to a friend of mine, Dustin and he helped me sort a lot of stuff out. He helped put everything in perspective and maybe I have been more in the wrong than I thought I was. However that doesn't change the fact that my mother was a complete bitch about this all too. It all has to do with the dreaded phone call my g/f's mother made to my mom, despite the fact that (I have two other people backing me on this) she said she'd stay out of it. And well information got back to my g/f although not all of it accurate and most of it skewed somewhat by my mother's desire to ruin any semblance of happiness I've managed to attain in my life. The information that got back to my beloved and cherished girlfriend put doubts in her head about me. Doubts that's the real kicker in all of this, I have them myself - I have them about what I'm going to make of my life, if I'll ever get published or known as a writer or if I'll ever attain a maturity level that suits my age, that I'll ever be able to hold onto this happiness that I'm experiencing right now in between all the shallow misery. But I never thought for a second that there could be doubts about my relationship with my girlfriend, never thought it a possibilty.