tinyhobo

its pretty amazing how life is at this point.
This weekend I will be meeting to layout the website.
Today hopefully I will be buying a Nintentdo DS!!!
My mister and I are doing quite well after our talk. The one thing I was worried about was that he was going to try to hard to please me, and that everything would feel forced, thus far its all a wonderfully real feeling.

We found the most amazing desk at IKEA, it makes me feel more excited about working on the site.

I miss Martini really bad.

Oh, and Im adding this here as an edit, because I forgot to mention this. Mr.Crisp sent me a letter from training. It was wonderful to hear from him. I have to remember to write him back this week. He is bored,but busy. He misses the site. Send him wonderful thoughts.

I am trying to carry the way I felt this past weekend with me. My spirit was so warm and full of joy, I need to have that unstoppable feeling everywhere I go. This warmth that I have now inspires me to feel better about me, about what surrounds me.

I have the desire for things that I havent allowed myself to have.

I have new goals, new things to look forward to.

• Cardio 3 times a week/abs-arms 3 times a week
• Have meaningful conversations with people IRL
• Plan the wedding
• Have site launched in by August
• Have more faith that I can do these things

The more I belive in me, the more I will do.

I pray now, is that weird? I meditate, I reflect. I harness my energy. There are things about me that those who have met me have pointed out, positive things that I never saw. I am owning these things and using them on my walk.

My poor body image is something I will struggle with here and there for the rest of my life. But I dont want to be a sack of bones, I want to be soft and pleasing to the touch. That feelings lingers longer in the person than if you are just pleasing to the eye. My goal in life is to please all senses.

Im reading way too many books at one time, and when I lay in bed the stories all join one another.