HY ALL MY FRIENDS <3
I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE LOVE MESSAGES WHILE I WAS IN RECOVERY
THANK U FOR CARE (づ ◕‿◕ )づ
I already have another blogs about my tragerory, if you want check this:
I was about to make this blog a while ago but I ended up stalling (︶︹︺)
Other than that I got a music, dance, singing school for free to my daughter 4 days a week, but I'll leave that to detail in another blog, it's been very tiring to include this in the routine but I'm happy to be getting out of the house more than 1 x a week (that was my maximum), for seeing her happy in the after-school , socializing with other children instead of spending the afternoon in front of a screen because her mother is bleeding all day on top of her A bed. i also conclude a video maker course with @caduandrade , it was a great challenge for me, because at that time I was much worse than now, I only managed to go every day so I was feeling very happy and pride about it
Some little things have changed here, but not enough to change my life to much, i feel like i have to make a lot of effort to go up a step and sometimes i go down 10 at a time, i never have a linear improvement, after going to the doctor in São Paulo , I didn't know what to do, I spent some time stagnant about it, I continued taking the hormone pills and suffering from the side effects. I also ran out of money and almost no resources to buy grocery shop and things for the house. This was a very difficult time, I felt that I couldn't do anything
After a while, I tried to overcome my insecurities in seeking treatments again, in trying to improve and abandoning the thought that nothing was worth it, to get out of inertia and acceptance. this is too hard. I looked for a doctor Rose outside traditional medicine with more natural treatments, I can say that I'm satisfied so far with her treatment that started in early March. (despite being the one that charged the most so far, 4 thousand reais for treatment and appointments, about 700 reais in medication per month and some exams) this makes me feel grateful, for having gotten this help, and being able to take care of myself, and at the same time a deep sadness about the reflection of health being something so expensive and inaccessible, paying 5 minimumwages in this country to finally feel that some professional cares and wants to see you really improve
She made me change some things in my routine like the water I consume, for example:
WATER: I found out that I was contaminated with heavy metals like lead, titanium, mercury, aluminum, etc... because my family was lying about the candles in the water filter here at home ( that had not been changed for years) I took water samples from the shower and the filter and the water in the filter was dirtier and more contaminated than the water in the shower, and this was affecting my health. So I had to buy new candles and even my family wrote the expiration date on the wrong filter (so I would have to spend less in the future). I just corrected it with a pen and tried not to stress about it, when people don't change you have to move but it's still not possible for me to leave here... All of it just because they wanted to save about 150 reais with it, so I bought it, the result of that time with the filter contamination was destroying the health of the whole family and giving me contamination, the heavy metals were competing with the vitamins and nutrients in my body and obviously winning.
Give preference to fresher, wholesome, organic, natural foods. bad fats, fried foods, soy oil which was very difficult for me because I was very sick, and I ended up resorting to what was easier or sometimes I didn't eat because I didn't have the strength to go prepare, or ask for something. Now I'm preferring to go to the market once a week (I'm happy about that too because I couldn't before) so I can have fresher food, but to have variety and follow the doctor's diet I need to go to more upscale cities because in my neighborhood they have very little choice and they are not always healthy, so before leaving the appointments (which are also in cities with higher purchasing power) I try to go to a nearby market; this is much more expensive but I don't want to be like my family who only eat bad fats, pasta and sugar
My breakfast today according to what the nutritionist recommended ❤️
Cooking in my house ruins my mental health and makes me want to die because of the way my family is, so I confess that I try to escape from it, it drains me A LOT physically too so when I cook I usually don't try to do anything else on the same day because I can't... I pretend that the kitchen does not exist and try to stop by for quick snacks. i found some options to order delivery or order live up , balsamo, blomm (i can buy a good and complet meals, lunch for me and aika with a price more cheap than delivery usually have fast food app ) especially when I can't stand up like now, often things are all in the kitchen cupboard but I can't do it because I don't have energy and that makes me discouraged and sad, but sometimes I can cook when I'm more willing so I try to make meals and separate them into portions and keep them in the fridge for me and Aika, I'm happy when I can do that.
WORKOUT: doctor rose recommended me to go for a walk, I was very insecure because some time ago the simple fact of standing up without making any effort gave me a lot of pain and increased the bleeding a lot, so I started slowly, I took a lot of breaks, now I can walk for a while a little while longer, I was proud of that, I couldn't imagine myself going for a walk, rollerblading and walking with aika so early, she was also afraid to go for a walk alone with me because she's seen me many times falling, fainting, in puddles of blood on my feet, Dr. Rose also recommended that I start running, I run very little, just a few minutes interspersed with walking 2x each time I go out.
I still don't have a pair of shoes suitable for running and not many clothes suitable for exercise, one that I bought without brand (because it's cheaper) ended up hurting me a lot I don't care about the brand for status, I don't want to "walk around with three stripes" to attract attention (even more so because my neighborhood is dangerous and some people have already gone back even in their underwear and barefoot to house) so I put on my wishlist things that I don't think will draw attention but are from reliable brands suitable for exercise, I can't buy everything at once I can't wash clothes every day so I need at least 5 sets of cold and It's hot, so if anyone wants to give me one set or piece as a present on Valentine's Day here in Brazil, which is the 12th, here's a suggestion, because I'd be very happy ^^ ps: I fell on my roller skates and got hurt these days because I only bought safety equipment for aika and I had a hard time on the asphalt ahahah
buy exercise clothes from specialist brands or get slaughtered by them
So I only put famous well-known brands because I know they are of good origin, the other brands that I found on amazon I'm afraid to buy and the quality will be bad or I end up hurting myself, but I accept recommendations from good clothing brands, I know some cheaper brands that I trust but they are not on amazon so I can't put them on my wishlist
STRESS: She also recommended me some anti-stress habits that I confess I couldn't include in my routine, probably because I'm feeling overwhelmed and without time for everything I'd like to do in a single day (don't be a single mom okay?) many anxieties, nervousness and stress i know i will only be able to get rid of it when i move in with aika (being a passive smoker here is an example) but i try not to think about it too much, and thats hard
OTHER DETAIS: She even tested my cosmetics, some are made with contaminated water or have a lot of preservatives, she recommended that I change the pans at home (get rid of the aluminum ones and prefer stainless steel but I haven't been able to do the complete change yet because my family and because good pans are expensive in brazil), be careful with products from cleaning, it made me spend A LOT of money, but I am grateful for having learning and improved many habits and being able to choose things that are good for my body, they are small everyday things that slowly poison the body...
Use less medication that can be bad and compromise other organs, and more natural essential oils (she recommended using one a day, and a very good one for headaches), they are not very cheap but they smell very good and are very good for the body; Be careful with the packaging of any cosmetic food product or medicine, because this being plastic or bad metal can contaminate me again, and so I cleaned the body little by little, and I still need to complete this decontamination by going to the dentist to have him remove the mercury that I still have in restoration of teeth, I haven't gone yet because it won't be cheap she recommended me a dentist who charges 1200 per tooth and another who charges 400 per tooth, apart from the other procedures I know I'll need because of the time I was in bed and didn't I managed to take care of myself properly.
ALL OF THIS for some people this may seem like freshness I have to continue taking care of myself in this sense because the contamination was causing blood clots to leave my body every day.
Speaking of which, I was thinking about getting an Apple Watch too (or something similar) I never cared about that, I thought it was something people wanted to show off hahaha but it seems very good to me for keeping track of health performance, heartbeats, steps per day and etc, can anyone tell me about the experience, give tips or recommendations on?
Maybe some of you noticed that I'm back to playing pokemon go, right? I've been exchanging gifts in the game with some friends here, and I'll leave my code in case anyone else wants to be my friend in the game, I already had a pokemon gotcha that I got from an ex, but when I walked back I realized that it broke :_ : he didn't monitor physical health but it was fun
So add me so i can send postcards from my ugly neighborhood that doesn't have any pokestops besides ugly churches
All these changes that dr rose recommended to me and the natural remedies have helped me feel better especially the netural tinctures for endometriosis, but it wasn't enough for me to get REALLY well, I still felt A LOT OF FATIGUE, I still have bleeding, sometimes I still spend days in bed, but I have less pain than before.
ABOUT HISTEROSCOPY WITH DIAGNOSIS IN THE ENDOMETRIUM
As some of you saw the day before i underwent a surgical procedure, i will be in recovery for 10 days, so i finally decided to come and do that update that i wish i had done a lot sooner.
In the last blog I remember saying that I was taking 3 hormone pills a day, that improved the symptoms a little, but not completely, I continued to have hemorrhages (less than before) but even so the doctor told me that due to the amount of medicine there shouldn't be any so she recommended me to have a diagnostic hysterectomy with endometrial biopsy, in 2020 I made a blog citing a test that cost 7 thousand reais, this same test that I already wanted to have done a long time ago to find out straight from the source at once how to solve it, and they didn't authorize me, I had to wait all this time to finally get a medical request for this exam. I really felt like they were parceling out and prolonging my suffering, instead of finding out right away and treating it right.
Thanks to @yuuh I found a place that charged 3 thousand reais, cheaper for this and that didn't make me pay for a consultation before giving me the exam, and besides, she accompanied me during the procedure, warming my heart. <3
The doctor did not authorize the surgery, he just asked for a video exam to investigate why my endometrium continues to have hemorrhages I really wanted to cauterize what I needed, because I would spend less money and undergo less invasive procedures, in addition to looking with the camera and already identified fibroids, an endometrial scraping was collected and sent to the laboratory to analyze and see if it discovers anything else, the result came out after 10 days and it was kind of inconclusive and disappointing...
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I TRY ONE MORE DOCTOR
As I am seeking the opinion of several doctors, I went to Dr. agostinho (recommended by Rose because she said she couldn't prescribe me supplementation but that she liked his work) who also has an approach to integrative medicine, so he asked me for a battery of exams that cost 4 thousand reais (I hope to get a bigger discount next battery of tests and I'm looking and taking advice for this), no doctor wanted to do this before, I was excited about it, when the results came out and I returned to his office, he made conclusions that left me in shock
According to him, because of the hemorrhages I had, my body was very deficient, so the minerals in my digestive system went to other parts of the body to try to overcome this deficiency, this created an imbalance in my intestine, with only bad bacteria, it ended up generating wear on the wall of the intestine (which makes a lot of sense because I also have complaints of bleeding in the intestine), this unbalanced many other factors, such as my hormones, therefore my sleep, my cardiac cycle (way of perceiving day and night).
And that's also why I'm almost without any absorption of nutrients and vitamins despite my diet being good, that's why I feel very hungry and even eating I get very discouraged, my cells produce almost nothing of energy. I have almost no oxygenation either, because my ferritin is very low, Dr. Agostinho said that from now on we are going to work to fix all this, balance my body, hormones, so he mainly prescribed me iron, vitamin D and other vitamins and hormony intravenously (this is the first time that I get a doctor who prescribes me intravenously as well since I always felt that I needed), there will be at least 4 sessions, I made the budget and it gave 4 thousand reais for month and also many manipulated ones that I still don't know how much it will be but I imagine it will be more than 500 reais (Update, the pharmacy answered me today, June 10th, the pill supplements will cost 2100 reais)
He also said that I will need at least 2 years of treatment (if I do everything right and manage to do the treatment) to be fine because I need to replace all the cells that are not good with new ones and that takes some time, apart from that clinica his service despite being 800 reais per consultation, a nutritionist and a psychologist are also included, and they all talk to each other about the patients' case, that's really cool. I didn't expect to spend on it now, because I've already been to a nutritionist before who asked me for a diet that I didn't have the energy to prepare and I thought there was no point in looking for a psychologist without leaving an environment with a toxic family first, but as it is included I won't procrastinate this anymore. They also have a team of personal trainers, Dr. He also recommended me to do bodybuilding exercises because I have very few kg of muscle (perhaps because I spent 2 years in a bed bleeding) but I need to enroll in a gym that is about 120 reais per month and pay the daily personal about 100 per day he can go to the gym with me and 80 a day for him, and I'm also going to have to take a protein supplement to help with this issue, I'm looking for brands and prices, but from what I understand they cost around 200 reais (I never take this before, don't know how long this lasts)
I have a risk of osteoporosis, due to low calcium, so he said that I need to build more minimal muscle mass to stay healthy and not risk breaking bones, this will take several months
he also prescribed a gestrinone prosthesis, which will release the hormone inside my body to treat bleeding, it costs 3 thousand reais and lasts 6 months, I already had a bad experience with gestrinone orally, but he said that he does not recommend this because the implant does not have the same bad side effects so I will give it a try, I stopped taking cerazette and pietra in march (3 pills a day) because I felt they were doing me a lot of harm so I will give more a chance for gestrinone, I commented on the change in my voice pitch as well when taking it orally recommended by Dr, J.D. that I mention a bad situation with her in thethird blog about health, he said that gestrinone orally alters the vocal cords and that maybe this is irreversible, maybe I will feel pain and discomfort in them forever too :(
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For the time being I will continue the follow-up with Dr Agostinho and Dr Rose, because "so far I am satisfied" and I think that integrative medicine is being better for me than all the other doctors I have been to who only wanted to prescribe me palliatives and in the future if possible I wanted to do acupuncture sessions for the pain and maybe have a hot tub at home to help ease the pain too. But first I hope to be able to start IV treatment soon
I hope to be able to continue the treatments for as long as necessary and every day I get a little better, I know it won't be easy, not cheap and much less quick but I started to get excited about trying to improve my health again
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THANK U GUYS FOR SUPPORTING HEP AND CARE ME, FOLLOWING MY TRAGEDY AND NOT LETTING ME GIVE UP ON ME
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