Please bare with me as i have never written a blog before, i could go as far as sayin that I am unsure as to what a blog means but here goes anyway.
In my complicated busy life of mechanics (motorbike), modeling, friends, family, looking after my dog etc I find it hard to wind down, I love to paint and when i do time flies, my mind empties and all i see is the canvas in front of me.
So at the end of each day there is nothing better than to have a smoke and get my brushes out..... it seems no matter how stressful my day has been or how hard work has been or how oily i get... painting takes it all away, Sometimes i finish a painting sometimes i dont, sometimes I like what I have painted sometimes i dont. Ill be honest and some of you artists may be confused by this but i cant draw for shit. but my paintings always turn out as i imagined it.
Mental drain can be a hard thing to cope with and everybody has to find there coping, this is mine, I was one told by an university lecturer that I paint like van gough, then he told me he was a crazy man and to have his technique meant that i was too crazy.
Thats nice aint it, but what if its true, what if when i lose my self in the canvas I am infact a crazy person.... but i dont care
Its what helps me tick, its what helps me get through my weeks of work. I am convinced its what helps keep me smiling.
I hope all you lovely peeps that read this have your own way of coping and your own way of getting through day by day.
This is mine and ill never stop, maybe one day i can put down the spanners and oil filters for good, and do all the things i enjoy the most :)
Tinkerbee xoxo
