tinheart

last night i had one of the greatest experiences of my life. a friend of mine had gotten hold of a couple tabs of X and was waiting for a good time to take them so we figured this weekend would be good since he didn't have to work and i wasn't doing anything. we started the night going out to dinner and just talking about the usual dinner stuff: life, relationships, and general silliness. we got back to my apartment, unbagged a shitload of candy and went to it. basically all we did was sit around all night high as shit watching the venture bros. and ren and stimpy. still, it was really fucking awesome. the sensations you experience on that sort of mind altering drug are amazing. i knew it was hitting me as soon as the tv looked like it was seen through a view-master, and after a few minutes, i hit my first roll. it felt really strange and really great all at the same time. my vision started to shake a little and i just laid my head back to let it wash over me. i've never felt so happy and relaxed in all my life. the sensation of just touching your own skin when that roll hits is something else. electric is the only way to describe it. my friend was right. that's something that should be done about every 3 or 4 months just to help take the edge off.

as far as everything else goes, this was, for the most part, a good week. i was pretty upbeat for the first couple days of this week. monday and tuesday just seemed to fly right by. the later it got though, things started to slow down a little, but more to a normal pace. i haven't been thinking much on the past few months and have instead been trying to focus on the future. things are starting to look up. life is a little brighter. though i do still think of my ex from time to time, it's mostly for the simple fact that i miss my friend. it's hard for me to simply let go of emotional attachments. when i get to know someone like that they stick in my head. to simply let them go is difficult. but i know it's for the best and that's what keeps me going.