My scarification experience.
I used to be a cutter, that's how I dealt with the world. I know it isn't a healthy coping skill but it was all I knew. I haven't cut myself in over two years. Most of my scars have been covered up by tattoos, except for a couple on my thigh. I decided that I wanted to have a scarification piece incorporating the scars that I already had. After much research, I chose to go with the fireweed. It's a plant that is planted after oil spills, it grew after the great fire of london, it's beauty out of ugliness and devastation.
I was super nervous, I wasn't sure if having this done was going to bring back old memories, or if it would hurt so much that I wouldn't be able to go through with it. I don't know if it was my mental preparation or if the universe knew I needed this to heal but it didn't hurt. At all. It felt like I was being drawn on with a ball point pen. It was an incredible experience. I feel like I've really healed, that I'm complete.
Hope everyone is having a fantabulous day!
I used to be a cutter, that's how I dealt with the world. I know it isn't a healthy coping skill but it was all I knew. I haven't cut myself in over two years. Most of my scars have been covered up by tattoos, except for a couple on my thigh. I decided that I wanted to have a scarification piece incorporating the scars that I already had. After much research, I chose to go with the fireweed. It's a plant that is planted after oil spills, it grew after the great fire of london, it's beauty out of ugliness and devastation.
I was super nervous, I wasn't sure if having this done was going to bring back old memories, or if it would hurt so much that I wouldn't be able to go through with it. I don't know if it was my mental preparation or if the universe knew I needed this to heal but it didn't hurt. At all. It felt like I was being drawn on with a ball point pen. It was an incredible experience. I feel like I've really healed, that I'm complete.
Hope everyone is having a fantabulous day!
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andsoitgoes:
Fucking OW girl. I am jealous of being able to put up with that intensity, and congrats for finding such an amazing outlet for it. When I get better we need to seriously get together.
zenfish:
Going through old blogs, good to see you're still around.