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Monday Sep 19, 2005

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PURE GONZO JOURNALISM PART 3

The world is not best served by your being small, Mr. March. -Harriet: wearer of the Dorje tattoo, and for good reason.

She said that to me after my divorce. She was wise enough to foresee the results of my inclination; which, enabled and driven by the sea of emotions at the time, was to shut my world down into a very small & concentrated version. To hide so that my negative tapestry would not have to be seen or felt by those around me. Lone Wolf syndrome, Im sure you know it well. Its not pretty. Dimly lit rooms, darkly burdened with somber music, lots of ice cream

But as I am graced with age, and with that (if youre lucky) comes a few inklings of wisdom from time to time, I knew that I had to jump feet first and two-fisted into the pool of things to do so that I might be surrounded with the other madly paddling swimmers who would encourage me fervently not to drown. The right swimmin holes are good for that.

BE THE CHANGE THAT YOU WANT TO SEE.

And so, with all of these people around me, it was easy to stay busy, happy, and ever striving to do more; to BE more. (-side note: Its so funny how the muse works I wrote more but the ink globbed, and when I re-read it, it said to BE me. Ha Ha!)

GIVE ME A LEVER AND A PLACE TO STAND & I SHALL MOVE THE EARTH. - Archimedes (Im quite sure he was drunk at the time.)

So with these honest and honorable friendships giving me footing to stand and an iron pole of self belief as my lever, I set about to re-invent myself. Not to become something I am not, but by stripping away the brown in my hair to let out the blue. By stripping away the self of tangible and material things; of pettiness & insecurities; of ego & selfish times, and standing naked, wrapped only in this superhero attitude & firmly entrenched in the all-too-real possibility that I am, in fact, invincible. Doubt me? Come and see.

Part of our religion is radical inclusion. If youre reading this; congratulations! Youre included! Welcome aboard! Please make arrangements to have your head put back together at the end of the ride.

***

(end part 3. Im starving. more later.)
anissa:
I'll be on the edge of my seat if you need me. biggrin
Sep 20, 2005
fukidunno:
Wow, is that what I have been doing with all of this self examination? Do you find it's better to just do what you are? Do you find you really are your reality? Does it freak you out in just the smallest way? Oh come on, it had to in the beginning... just getting used to the idea the first time around. No?

I smile lots reading your entries.
Sep 20, 2005

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