hola!
I have had an extraordinarily lazy weekend parked in front of the TV, mainly watching sport!! This is due in no small way to the fact I pickled myself to a monsterous degree on Friday night! In hindsight it wasnt the best plan! I met my old flat mate for a catch up. By catch up I mean he has split up with his tit of a girlfriend for the millionth time so remembers he has friends again!! Anyways, it always gets messy with himand this time was no exception! I must say he is a bit of a twat these days!! One of the ones I dont regret losing touch with.
Actually thats true of pretty much everyone! Hehe!
Being out and about though did make me question how much Ive kept myself away from people and events etc. I think I took it too far. I miss having aquaintances and adventures I suppose. I need to learn to put myself out there more, to accept the days where my mood makes other things a priority but to also accept people are social creatures and it can feel nice to just be around other people.
I think I may have to make this a challenge. Its partly down to the extended thinking on my work and art as well, I think it suffers from a lack of interaction and an overabundance of time alone. You need to be out there to see things and to feel things. Shutting away because it can get tricky isnt an option anymore. I want more to draw upon.
I havent been up to much in the way of excitement recently, though Ive been enjoying some manual labour this past week helping decorate a soon to be youth caf and offices - Great fun. The upstairs is looking loads better already if I do say so! Another couple of days there next week as well.
Along with the work Im really glad to be having an extended period of bringing money in. Having returned to my old place for a couple of weeks over xmas, student funding and my work with my brother my bank is back in shape which really cheers me up. Money certainly isnt everything but the options and freedom having a little behind you gives I really appreciate.
I still owe myself a treat from xmas time as well as I kept money back to spend. I am completely unsure what this treat will be though!! I really do fancy an ipod touch, just because! Or changing my tv and dvd player for a nice tidy LCD versionor finding a good tattoo idea..The problem is I could spend it all ten times over, but I also dont want to spend it!! Hehe! Bugger!
Though if I could afford an Imac it would be a different story!!
Generally things have been a little fraught recently. Seemingly a lot of effort goes in to life for not so much return. I think sometimes I am guilty of not being as selfish as I need to be. I dont always get the impression that my efforts are always appreciated in many ways. Its a vague feeling, but I dont know that people believe I am acting for my own purposes.rather than reacting for theirs. I guess I feel Im seen as an extension to those around me, rather than an individual in his own right.
Hmmm, anyways. Not interesting!
Im engrossed in research for a new uni project, thankfully it is self set for a few months which means I can get back to addressing what is important to me. Rather than being walked through some shite no-one cares about. Im planning a list of places to visit for drawing and photos to end up with a set of large canvasses all based on the idea of the ruin. Maybe more the latent feelings in buildings and places left after their use has expired.
There are a lot of places around here worth exploring. An abandoned cinema, a now defunct mental instituation, old dock yards (industrial landscapes are awesome) various ports etc. There is a heath very nearby that used to be used for public executions, the cells at the town halletc etc etc!! Stretch to London and there are millions more. Im trying to make a list of anything I can think of and then will try to get round to them in the next few weeks.
Having split my uni project in to sections seems to work very well. First 2/3 weeks purely research, looking at artists, images, colours, texturesanything that jumps out and recording it trying to figure out why you have picked those things after brings a lot of insights at times. Then a couple of weeks photographing and drawing at places and doing some paint tests. Finishing off about mid march when I will build me 2 or 3 big canvasses and get cracking.
Ive learnt that I work better in bursts, having too much spare time or doing an hour here or there just doesnt work for me. So I will leave the actual painting till near the end.
Its good to have something to focus on for the time being, and its quite nice for that thing to be for me and only me for a change. Hopefully some interesting things will be coming up soon and all this talk will equate to action!! Getting back to the interests that are really mine is also a priority. Making music, watching films and going places.speaking of, Gran Torino looks fantasticI really like Clint Eastwoods films. Cant wait.
Toodles!
Xx
I have had an extraordinarily lazy weekend parked in front of the TV, mainly watching sport!! This is due in no small way to the fact I pickled myself to a monsterous degree on Friday night! In hindsight it wasnt the best plan! I met my old flat mate for a catch up. By catch up I mean he has split up with his tit of a girlfriend for the millionth time so remembers he has friends again!! Anyways, it always gets messy with himand this time was no exception! I must say he is a bit of a twat these days!! One of the ones I dont regret losing touch with.
Actually thats true of pretty much everyone! Hehe!
Being out and about though did make me question how much Ive kept myself away from people and events etc. I think I took it too far. I miss having aquaintances and adventures I suppose. I need to learn to put myself out there more, to accept the days where my mood makes other things a priority but to also accept people are social creatures and it can feel nice to just be around other people.
I think I may have to make this a challenge. Its partly down to the extended thinking on my work and art as well, I think it suffers from a lack of interaction and an overabundance of time alone. You need to be out there to see things and to feel things. Shutting away because it can get tricky isnt an option anymore. I want more to draw upon.
I havent been up to much in the way of excitement recently, though Ive been enjoying some manual labour this past week helping decorate a soon to be youth caf and offices - Great fun. The upstairs is looking loads better already if I do say so! Another couple of days there next week as well.
Along with the work Im really glad to be having an extended period of bringing money in. Having returned to my old place for a couple of weeks over xmas, student funding and my work with my brother my bank is back in shape which really cheers me up. Money certainly isnt everything but the options and freedom having a little behind you gives I really appreciate.
I still owe myself a treat from xmas time as well as I kept money back to spend. I am completely unsure what this treat will be though!! I really do fancy an ipod touch, just because! Or changing my tv and dvd player for a nice tidy LCD versionor finding a good tattoo idea..The problem is I could spend it all ten times over, but I also dont want to spend it!! Hehe! Bugger!
Though if I could afford an Imac it would be a different story!!
Generally things have been a little fraught recently. Seemingly a lot of effort goes in to life for not so much return. I think sometimes I am guilty of not being as selfish as I need to be. I dont always get the impression that my efforts are always appreciated in many ways. Its a vague feeling, but I dont know that people believe I am acting for my own purposes.rather than reacting for theirs. I guess I feel Im seen as an extension to those around me, rather than an individual in his own right.
Hmmm, anyways. Not interesting!
Im engrossed in research for a new uni project, thankfully it is self set for a few months which means I can get back to addressing what is important to me. Rather than being walked through some shite no-one cares about. Im planning a list of places to visit for drawing and photos to end up with a set of large canvasses all based on the idea of the ruin. Maybe more the latent feelings in buildings and places left after their use has expired.
There are a lot of places around here worth exploring. An abandoned cinema, a now defunct mental instituation, old dock yards (industrial landscapes are awesome) various ports etc. There is a heath very nearby that used to be used for public executions, the cells at the town halletc etc etc!! Stretch to London and there are millions more. Im trying to make a list of anything I can think of and then will try to get round to them in the next few weeks.
Having split my uni project in to sections seems to work very well. First 2/3 weeks purely research, looking at artists, images, colours, texturesanything that jumps out and recording it trying to figure out why you have picked those things after brings a lot of insights at times. Then a couple of weeks photographing and drawing at places and doing some paint tests. Finishing off about mid march when I will build me 2 or 3 big canvasses and get cracking.
Ive learnt that I work better in bursts, having too much spare time or doing an hour here or there just doesnt work for me. So I will leave the actual painting till near the end.
Its good to have something to focus on for the time being, and its quite nice for that thing to be for me and only me for a change. Hopefully some interesting things will be coming up soon and all this talk will equate to action!! Getting back to the interests that are really mine is also a priority. Making music, watching films and going places.speaking of, Gran Torino looks fantasticI really like Clint Eastwoods films. Cant wait.
Toodles!
Xx
Just watched the last two Six Nations games today, and I've got Ireland (the team I root for other than the US) vs. Italy game downloading at the moment.
England put up a good fight against Wales, even if they were without Williams. It will be interesting to see how this tournament shapes up.
Who do you guys have next? I don't want to check the fixtures in case they spoil the Italy/Ireland result.
If its France, you definitely have a shot to win there. Very unconvincing at home against Scotland.