timskin

thought I'd try writing something a little chirpier, and less drunken!

I actually went out last night *gasp* It's beena while. Everything has been based towards trying to start a career as an artist recently, it seems that I've obsessed to the point I can't stop now! Being out wasn't fun, I thought I missed it but I dont. More than anything I think I miss the way I used to feel and the times when friendships were fun and we all used to go out and cause as much mischief as possible. When you didn't know where you'd end up, who you would meet etc etc. Everythings too predictable these days. Comes when your friends settle down etc I know but it doesn't help those who haven't!!

I also have drifted so far away from my friends there doesn't seem a way back. It'd been coming for a long time but since new years I've distanced myself and don't have anything to talk to them about anymore. The annoying part is I dont make friends easily, a bit too quiet around those I don't know and a bit too sarcastic for my own good! It's a shame because I would like to have a bigger group of people I get on with and genuinely have something to talk about.

I lost track of all the people I went to art college with and those I know through music don't seem to think the same way I do about it. No-one has that drive that makes them never stop pushing and critiquing their work. It's like they have a set and a few local gigs and that's enough. The last band project I did I became an absolute tyrant!! Nothing was ever good enough, the recording and rehearsing was fairly exhausting for all concerned but it was just so we could come out at the end and be proud of what we did.

For a listen to one track, as I never did the myspace thing properly for it (was a songwriting project rather than a band, go HERE

My best mate came back from a year away 2 days ago and it was great to catch up with him, A little jealous of the stuff he's done and the fact he's found that person to do it all with. I'm told the wedding is going to be in South Africa in a years time so I guess I should start saving now! Still seems odd to be planning on your mates weddings - I used to young I swear!!hehe!

I have had to cancel my travel plans for the end of this month, the cost of the travelling was too prohibitive for such a brief period of time. So instead I have rearranged my holiday etc and will now be taking most of May off work and planning a trip across Europe. Will probably start in France, end in Paris then nighttrain to Rome - from there I'm not sure just yet. Finding the cheapest, easiest link to another country is the plan but finding one that will keep a single traveller entertained. I would rather not double back on myself and going upwards towards the old Eastern European block and then back toward England is roughly what I havein mind, this weekend will be researching inbetween work and running (which still hurts like a bitch!! How the hellI was doing 5k runs almost daily in the summer is beyond me!)

There is an option of going to the states instead as my uncle lives in New York state, it would be further but also easier which I kind of want to avoid. That I think I should save for another time.

So instead I have a week off work to play with. I know I am going to go and see the Face of Fashion exhibition and I also plan on watching "300" at the Imax cinema in London. Been looking forward to that film for so long!! I will also go to the coast for the day because it's just fun! Otherwise I need to think of a few things to do - cheap things but stuff I've not done before. I may go to one of the cathedrals in the nearby area, I love visiting old places and we have a wealth of them in this country that I really haven't checked out. Wouldn't mind trying some horse riding too, though the animal needed would be massive and most likely scare the shit out of me!

Right, off now....more tea and I may go smack some golf balls about. Driving ranges are fun and a cheap way of getting some agression out!!

tata!