I wake up. I turn on the TV. Watch some music videos. Go have a shower. Go have some breakfast. Time to check my emails.
Nothing in the emails
Time to check the dating site nothing here
Time to check the journals
Someone has responded to my post
Carrie writes:
Dude, back off!
Hmm It also looks like she has made a post to her journal
Carries entry:
Title: Stop
Just stop
Stop sending me emails
Stop sending me gifts
Stop asking for advice from my friends
Stop giving me comments on my dating profile
Stop sending me multiple friendship requests
Stop posting in my journal
Remove me and my husband from your friends list
Stop talking about me
Never ever contact me again
I post in her journal:
As you wish
*************
Oh no How could I do that? How could I hurt someone that much? I am an evil son of a bitch.
I feel like shit all day at work. I am dead inside. I am the guilty one
*************
I get home. I am going to check Carries journal, just in case she has changed her mind. I find a series of comments:
Holy stalker batgirl!
Hey do you need someone to punch this guy out?
In response to the comment above:
*Raises hand*
This guys need a good ass kicking! Seriously, you have a long line of people standing behind you and J on this. If you need anything let us know.
Stalker!? NO! NO! I DIDNT! I DIDNT DO THAT! DID I? OH SHIT! OH FUCK! OH FUCKING SHIT!
I know where they are all coming from. I was on that side of her battles at one time. I would be doing the same thing if I was still on the other side of the line. I am the only one who can take care of this I am the only one who can make this right Time to be self destructive!
AUTHORS NOTE: This is the only time where I felt anger during this whole month. Unfortunately it was directed towards myself.
I write:
This is the last post I promise
This guy deserves all that is coming to him. If you want a piece of him, you have to get it is quick, because I am going to fucking kill him myself. Seriously.
I then go on to delete all my journal entries
I then can my journal account
I go the dating site and remove myself from there.
I went to bed early. I cried for about 2 hours. I cried myself to sleep that night.
I am going to hide myself from her. She will never see me again I am going to promise that! I am going to kill this fucking asshole I must still protect my friend from harm. From this shithead. There is only one way to do that permently
Rayde