Still nothing. I have waited 3 days since her return, or what I think is when she should have returned.
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Barry writes back:
Til,
You know there is one thing you could do. I gave this advice to a friend of mine once. You could send a bouquet of flowers to this girl at her work. Then you give a note with it saying thanks for the wonderful memories. Then if she gets all bitchy, it will make her look bad in front of all her co-workers, because you did something that was really nice.
Pretty smart, eh? And I came up with it all by myself. 
B
Wow That is very weird. I like the idea of doing something nice for Carrie. I want to make her happy, because I havent been able to do that much lately.
I write:
Hey Barry,
Yeah that sounds like a good idea but I dont know if I should do it. I dont want to make my friend upset.
I am also thinking that flowers might not be the things she wants. I was thinking maybe some cards or something. But I dont want to turn her off of the cards. She gets so much enjoyment out of it. I dont want to be the one that stopped the fun for her.
I will have to think about this
Til
Barry writes back:
Til,
It is not about upsetting someone and making them feel bad, it is about being a perfect gentleman about the things. As long as you are being the perfect gentleman, there is nothing that you can do wrong.
Just act and be the gentleman.
B
I write back:
Hey Barry,
That sounds mighty fine. I will seriously have to think about this. Her birthday is coming up and I want to do something nice for her. She doesnt work. I could send it to her home, but I dont even know if she is back yet.
I think I might have said too much.
Til
I think that this doesnt sound like a bad idea after all. If I am to do this, I have to do it right. Flowers, Magic Cards, a card. It will be nice. But I need some info before I can set my plan in motion
Why is this giving me hope? Is it false hope that I will be able to get my friend back?
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I start reading this book: Clicky
Funny. This book is making loads of sense to me. It is giving me focus. I have read one third of the book tonight. It says many things that I should not be doing. It says dont give into your fears. Which I have been doing since Carrie sent that email with creepy in it. I have been acting like a loser too. No wonder it feels like I am losing a friendship. I have been acting as such. I must fix this.
I want to get my friendship back. I want to fight for it.
