What you are experiencing is a view of the past, it is not happening as we speak. This is a story I must tell, there is nothing that can be said that will change the outcome of the story. To see the story from the start go here.
And remember, don't leave comments about the story until it is finsihed. It will be finished when the words "THE END" show up. Then you can tell me what I did wrong and the prevention for my failure.
Thank you!
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Nov 8
Okay I might never see Carrie again. I can still contact her. I think I must tell her something. What would I do if I knew someone was going to leaving my life for good? I have to say things, things that are always going to be true. I have to wish her the best in life. Okay
I write to Carrie:
Dear Carrie,
This might be the most foolish thing I have ever done. I dont want to do what I am about to do, but given the situation, I think I have to do this
I am totally sorry that I ruined our friendship. Your friendship was really important to me. I wish it could continue. But it is not all bad. I have learned a lot from you. About life, love and happiness. I hope that you have learned something from me too.
There are a few things I would like to say in the event that I dont talk to you before your birthday:
Have a great time in Banff. Have a great second honeymoon there. Just have a great birthday.
If I dont see you before April:
Welcome to Canada! Best of luck finding your first job here. Have a great time shopping after your first paycheck.
If I dont see you ever again:
Best of luck for you to become a nurse. You would totally be great for the profession.
Best of luck with all of your life and I hope you find that girlfriend you crave.
Could forward a couple of messages for me to Mary and Jerry. I dont have a way to contact them directly.
To Mary:
Good luck with your studies. You are totally smart kid. I hope you get into grad school too. I am sorry we didnt get to know each other better. You seemed like a great person to get to know.
Best of luck in life.
To Jerrry:
Dude, you have to stop working so much. You are giving the rest of us geeks a bad rep. Just kidding man. You have my respect for working so long and hard. Just dont burn yourself out, you have lovely wife to take care of there.
Thanks for the friendship.
Well, I guess that is all I have to say.
I just want to let you know that you are right, it is very hard to make friends and Calgary is a big place. On the day we meet again I hope we can be friends again. Until then you will be missed.
After I send this message I am going to be losing your email address and your phone number.
Good bye my friend
Til
I send this email. I went to the dating site so I could leave a comment on the dating site on Carries profile:
This girl is amazing. If you ever meet her, you are extremely fortunate. You rock!
I then felt like I needed to remove both Carrie and Jerry from my friends list. I went to Carries profile and was about to click on the remove friend icon when the picture changed to a guy getting his head blown off. I sat there with my finger over the trigger waiting to pull, part of me didnt want to. I didnt want to pull the trigger. But I have to give her space
After five minutes of debating what to do, I just closed my eyes and clicked
I missed. I closed my eyes again
BANGO! She is now off my friends list.
Now to do Jerry. I close my eyes and BLAMO! Gone from the list.
I have this weird feeling. I feel good about what I did. I dont know why. Why do I feel good?
you have yourself a great day as well .