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Sorry for the late post yesterday... I was more like early this morning...

Background Part III

The following weekend, I ended up going to Carries house again. This time I got there well before noon. We started to play some Magic, this was going to be the first time I was going to try out my new cards and how they played with my strategies. I was sitting on one side of the coffee table and Carrie was on the other side with the couch.

I wont bother you guys with the actual playing of the game, just know when we decide to break to watch TV I was up 4 games to her 3 games won.

This is when I got up and sat down at the end of the couch. Carrie grabbed a blanket and sat down right next to me. I had my arms at my side when she got really close to me. But since my arm is really boney she couldnt get comfortable. I moved my arm to wrap it around her waist. She got very comfortable after that. As we cuddled there, my hand started to move on her hip. I asked if it was okay if I did that and she it was fine.

After about 15 minutes of cuddling, she moved down off the couch between my legs. She asked me to start rubbing her back. I have never done this before. So I started slow on her neck and started to slowly rub her shoulders. I then went up to her neck and gave some attention to her head. I then started to move back down to her shoulders again. I must have rubbed her should, neck and head for half an hour.

Jerry the came up and sat down the couch to watch some TV with us. He was at the other end of the couch. I continued to rub Carries the entire time Jerry was there. I got even bolder when he was there. I started rubbing her back and arms. I dont think there was a spot on here back I didnt touch. After about an hour of total time, she needed a smoke break.

When got back, Jerry, Carrie and I all sat on the couch. I think at some point I got up to get a drink. When I came back Carrie was lying down in my spot. So I took the floor space in front of her. She started rubbing my head and neck. It was awesome.

When the TCL home improvement shows were over we started playing Magic again. She won the next two games and won our series, 5 to 4. I was just impressed that I won 4 games.

She then looked at me asked, So, what do you want to do now?

I responded, I dont know. What do you want to do?

You are the guest, you should decide.

You are the winner of our series, you should decide.

She then looked at me and got up to talk to her husband.

I dont know what was said, but when she came back she said that she was going to go to bed. I understood and she walked me to my car. There she gave me a big hug, I hugged her back. Then I left.

Later I read on her journal that she had a great day. Playing games and over an hour of back rubs and head pat. Total Carrie attention.

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There were some plans for our group to go out on the Friday before the Thanksgiving weekend, but the fell through because Barry had to go to East to visit his family.

When this fell through Carrie was upset. She doesnt get out of the house that much and was looking forward to the outing. She claimed that she was alone about 80-90% of the time.

That weekend I talked to Carrie a couple of times. She had plans and I was on my own. I was planning to work the Thanksgiving Monday in exchange to not working the next Friday.

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The Friday that I have off rolls around. I finish the book I was given on my birthday. Which was the only thing I did that day. And I was kind of down, for reasons you will learn later on.

The plans to go out the weekend before were moved to this Friday. I was happy about that. I would get to see my friends.

We went to Carries all-time favorite restaurant, which is small little Mexican joint downtown.

I was supposed to go to Carries house first. I did and I was exactly on time by my watch, they said I was late. I let Carrie know I was not in that great of a mood, but I was willing to go with them. So we, Carrie, Mary and I, pile into Jerrys car and off we go to pick up Teri.

We arrive at Teris and she is nowhere close to ready to go. We sit and wait for her to get ready for about 15 minutes. She comes out with her hair all wet and not combed.

Then it was off to the restaurant. On the way we passed Bushido on 4th, and Carrie said Lets stop at Bushido?

Jerry said, No.

Carrie, Bushido?

Teri said, No.

Carrie, Bushido?

Mary said, No.

Carrie, Bushido?

I said, Okay.

Carrie cried out, YAY!

Jerry then said to me, Okay, but you are buying.

I think I nodded then as I approved of the offer. I dont think the others notices, other wise we would all have matching tattoos right now.

We ordered our food and told stories of things that happened in the past. Carrie let it known that she wanted to become a nurse and the go into the foreign legion. It was then that I realized, I would have to say goodbye to her at some point. I best make the best of things while she is still here.

After our food had arrived and we scarfed it down, it was off to the theatre where Barry worked at. We were going to see a movie for free.

We get to the theatre a couple minutes late but the movie hasnt started yet because Barry was waiting for us. It is good to know people in power.

After the show we went to a pub some drinks and dessert. I didnt order anything. But the others did. Jerry order a slice of chocolate cake, Teri and Barry decided to split a slice for them selves, Carrie ordered some cheesecake and Mary ordered some apple crisp.

The cake slices were huge, almost as big as your head. Jerry finished his and we all thought he would need insulin after that. Teri and Barry couldnt even finish the slice together. Mary offered me some of her treat, but I declined, I wasnt feeling hungry. Carried finished hers, and when she was eating it, I looked at her and she opened her mouth to show me the piece she was chewing on. This got me to smile.

We then just talked until the pub closed down.

We dropped Teri off at her house. The back to Carries to pick up my car. When we got to Carries house, she asked why I was down, and I told her that it was just something I had to work out on my own. I got my stuff from her house and I was off back to my house.

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The next day, Carrie phones me up and asks if I wanted to go to a Halloween party with her. I said I would, I love Halloween. She told me the party was on the 29th of October.

During this conversation I asked if I could come see her the next Wednesday. She agreed and asked why. I said because I was to be different.

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The Wednesday comes around and I am at Carries house. I see Mary outside having a smoke. I start talking to her and Carrie yells from inside the house, is that Scott? I say it is and she tells me not to come in. Carrie has not put her make up on. I do as I am told and wait outside and continue talking with Mary.

Mary informs me that Carrie wants to get out of the house and I should take her to Banana Jaks for some bubble tea. I say I will try to swing that. Then Mary has to go catch her bus, so I give her a hug and she is off.

I wait for Carrie to call me in, which wasnt long. She was sitting in a huge pile of clothes. She was doing laundry. I think I made of comment on helping her with me fluffing and her folding.

She asked me if I had eaten yet and I reply no. She then says we should go out. Go out to Banana Jaks. Well that wasnt too hard now was it? I agree and she picks up a deck of cards and we go.

After a short drive we arrive. I look over the menu trying to find something I like then I spot it. Chicken Fingers! I can continue the tour.

Carrie orders her bubble tea and I order my chicken fingers and some sort of chocolate mint thingy. Then she pulls out the deck of cards and started to play a game of crib. There is also Sherk II playing on the TV as we play.

During one of our conversations, she let me know that she craved attention. I think I noticed this but was always glad to give her my attention. She is not as bad as some people, but she still didnt like that about herself. I told her I didnt really notice much.

It was great time, we talked, had some great food, she stole some of my fries and I had some great company. After about a couple of hours there, we went back to her place.

We started to watch some TV and she told me it was time for her to get a back rub. I asked if this was put of her being an attention junkie. She giggled and confirmed my guess.

I started rubbing her back while we both sat on the couch. Then she decided that she wanted to lie down. She put pillow on my lap and rested her head on it, while laid face down on the couch. I started to rub her back again. I then leaned down and gave her a kiss on her cheek.

I rubbed her back and shoulders and head and neck like the other night. I also got pretty brave and started to rub her hips and was actually able to put a finger under her pant line. When I found the crack of her butt she shot yay to me. I asked what was wrong then she asked How would you like it if someone put a finger up you ass? I took that as a no ass rule.

I also wanted to see if she would let me touch her breasts. I slowly started to trace up her back to her side. I was very slowly going closer to her breast. I brush lightly against it. She quickly moved her arm to block my advancing hands. I knew then that boobies were also off limits. Okay.

The only new territory I was able to rub without her stopping me was here tummy. I rubbed that along with her back and shoulders. I even played with her belly button ring for a while. It was fun.

Mary then came home and we had a smoke break. We talked about Halloween and what we should go as. They told me theirs. They even gave me suggestions as to what I should as. I took their ideas into consideration.

Then we went back in and Carrie and I went to the couch again where I rubbed her some more.

After sometime I noticed I should head home. So I had Carrie get off me and she walked me to the door. I got there and we hugged. Out of instinct, I think I kissed her on her shoulder. I dont know if she noticed. I didnt realize what I did until after I did it.

When we broke from the hug, I was looking at Carrie and I had this great urge to kiss her. I think I even wobbled a bit to lean in. She asked me what I was looking at, and I said nothing.

Carrie then showed me to the door and I went home.

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After I went home I figured out why I did those things. I had fallen for Carrie. I dont know how this happened at the time. I was just looking for a friend. I dont know why it happened, I kept telling myself that she was great friend, that is all I wanted. But I did listen to myself. I fell for her. It was so gradually that I didnt notice.

Okay, I know why. I find her attractive, she makes me laugh, she is supportive, she is fun to be around. Bottom line she makes me happy. Happier than anyone that I have been around. Now what?

I have to think this over. Am I capable of having a relationship with someone who is married? Will I get jealous if I dont to see her when I want to? Will have to book private time with her? Could I be polyamorous too and date other people while I date her? These are questions I need to be answered and there is only one way to get them answered

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Oct 24 28

These days were filled with some events that I will not share at this time. They will pop up soon enough.

Jerry asked to be on my friend list on the dating site. I accepted, I dont know what took us so long to do that.

Just to let you know that the Halloween party was no the 29th but on the 28th, which I didnt find out until the 27th. This gave me like a couple of hours to find something in my closet that could pass as a Halloween custome.

But I didnt have to. I fell pry to being sick the day of the party. And I was angry about it.

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I hope you enjoyed this. It was long and there were many things to talk about.

I think this would lead us into the day-by-day account of what I did from here on in. You have been given all the information that will help you decide what I did wrong.

So sit back and enjoy the next 31 days as I take you down the path for the fallen one.