tilia

I HAVEN'T HAD SEX THIS YEAR!

Can you believe it? Please don't offer. I'm not looking for charity or digging for compliments. I'm BLOGGING! Besides I'm not looking for someone new yet! And I don't like sex with strangers. I'm too picky... even the best lover is better with direction. Besides I'll have to shake the old one. See not cheating is like my religion....
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I'm running out of pot ..... my boyfriends an asshole ...... I don't drink at home anymore ...... (isn't drinking by yourself alcoholism?)....... GODDAMMIT! I'm gonna go all SHINING! Somebody call CSD! I'm not doing any of the things I'm not supposed to..... and it sucks. What do I do after I put Lotus to bed?

I have to be a straight edger anyway, next...
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So right now I'm using all the old wood frame windows I replaced last year to make psuedo stained glass.... I'm painting them like stained glass with floral motifs...... for my ma's new green house...... its her birthday on the 13th....... I just wish I had a screw gun!

My bags are packed.... (I need two suitcases cause I don't know what I want to wear yet)...... Laundry is done..... house clean..... Poultry and cats provided for..... My whole weekend free! I can take the parakeets with me.... (boohooo one died with one day left on its waranty so I still have two.... yes they have waranties for parakeets.... however you have to return...
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So I had a great Solstice and Christmas and will have a babysitter on New Years Eve for the first time in 6 years........... YAY! A recipe for Mayhem!

Starting plans for a treehouse....... I can build this spring....... I'm also going hydro-electric this Spring! I'm so happy I could fucking explode! Anyhow, I digress.... who wants to hear every little detail of my sordid...
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Goddammit.....
first the CD player...... and now the record player died!
I only own five tapes anymore.......

I'm snowed and iced in.......
I'm sensing something here.... a sense of Deja Vu......

THE SHINING..... I'll just go and get the axe.......

I need to split some more firewood anyways..... the detectives who come clean up the carnage can start a toasty fire..... maybe I should make...
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It is official.... I am self employed! The change: Postal Scale.... now I only have to leave the house for 8hrs a week......
When I moved here I wanted Lotus to grow up in the woods like I did...... I was so excited about living away from it all..... now I am lonely and bored...... I am a Leo! I can't paint because I need...
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Saw The Narnia movie tonight.... it was pretty good... hope they do some more.... my favorite of the books was The Voyage of the Dawn Treader.....
I finally figured out the timer on my camera! Yay! I posted some pics of my tats...... I won't be sharing any naughty photos however..... unless I get a check...... in which case I will show it fuckin' all!...
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So my life is boring and I have nothing to say. We live in a world devoid of humanity. And everyday I feel my connection to the world weaken. We are becoming spectators of our own experience........... the meaning for what we do fading into forgetfulness once overshadowed by the outcome..............

So this weekend is Lotus' Sixth Birthday! I'm kinda like whoa holy shit! So my boyfriend's boss is letting his parents stay in his huge house up on Sunset Hills. So we are having the party there...... its gonna be fun..... I had to get a huge chocolate cake with Princesses on it (isn't that what all 6 year old girls want?). On Saturday I'm...
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