tigress

I missed a few days didn't i?

Been busy.....pimpin it
hanging out with the little psycho boy all weekend again.
Friday....worked 3 hours later than expected!! Then went out and "stuff"
Saturday turned to shit. Got too damn drunk and ended up puking then passing out.
but sunday more than made up for it. SWEEEEEET!!!!!!!!!!!!


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RAN-DOM THOUGHT:
The harder you try to hold on the further i slip away. like soap. You try and tighen the grip and it just ends up slipping out of your hands

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I'm actually in a really shitty mood. Monday is the party killer and right about now my mood is at zero happiness. danger! watch ya self!

I'm snappy like a fucking crab.
off.
and then on again.
my spark is gone. it's just the fire raging.
Everything is bothering me.
My energy flow is fucked. There's a block. I'm all out of whack today.
I don't want a pity party now I hate that!!!
me venting or expressing does not equate me asking for pity
Sometimes the best therapy is just to write and have people listen. and maybe give me a thought or 2 to ponder. but none of that pitiful shit it's not genuine. and we all know how much i hate phoniness
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stupid shit questions...
because i feel shitty:

What ticks you off no matter what? what makes you smile no matter what?
Usually ignorance or incompetence ticks me off. oh yeah and phony ass people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! god damn! I can see right through it!
monkeys make me smile Muzic, getting lost in a story, outdoors...




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ME NOTE: GETTIN PERSONAL

1.I'm actually very detached. In the sense that i am disconnected from most things and people. I view myself on the outside looking in.
it's hard for me to become attached to anyone or anything. But when I do it's for keeps.

2. I'm what they call an "athiest" or nonbeliever" FUCK YOUR GOD. It doesn't exist

saying everything with a smile since day 1
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the brain is working too fast for the fingers to follow today. I'll get back on track. I just need to get my brain out of the rut. Everytime i step foot in this fucking office space i feel stressed and lately that's enough to send me into a frenzy.

much to the people who deserve it. which is all of the people on my friend list.


I apologize for the incoherence.

and with that fuckers..I'm off to sail these thunderous waves of anger
It will dissipate. magically.

I'm hungry. That's what happens when you waste your vital energy on anger