ok kids, i'm officially bored.
i really really love being home, and you gotta love my little home town, with the "my-t-fine" market, post office and gas station as the offical hub of down town. and this is pick up country and i miss my ol' betsy (1977 ford f150 truck WITH camper shell). and i love walking down the road with leo as the neighbors are putting the new gun rack on the back of their ride. actually, i'm not being sarcastic. i really do love it. it's just one little piece of the world were corporate homogeneity hasn't quite taken hold. and there is nothing, NOTHING more beautiful than the stormy sky, mt. shasta shining in all it's glorious snowy white, and mt lassen just barely visible to the east.
but i'm soooooo bored. i don't say that often. the big excitement of today was watching my mom's xmas present "the roomba" vacuum the house. have you seen these things? little robots that look like trilobytes that vacuum without you? pretty gadgety, but cool i guess.
it's important to me to spend time with the family. and one of my brothers, and sister in law, are here, and i don't see them often. but the conversation always skims the surface, and i can't do casual conversation for too long without feeling starved. plus my dad's depression is starting to kick in, and he doesn't know how to take responsibility for it, so it can be draining. even if i do want to help.
i think i'm feeling a bit lonely. missing friends, wanting intimate company. still haven't heard from my best friend, who usually rescues me while i'm up here. hmmmm...what was that i was saying in my last journal about hoping that however you were feeling you'd have some space to just be with it? i don't seem to be taking my own advice. well, i know this is all in passing. a little holiday letdown. things are good really...everyone is here, healthy, together...
still sending my love out to all of you, and i hope you are enjoying yourself, wherever you are and whatever you're doing.
and if you're feeling lonely too, come on over! we'll go for a walk...the stars are bright tonight.
i really really love being home, and you gotta love my little home town, with the "my-t-fine" market, post office and gas station as the offical hub of down town. and this is pick up country and i miss my ol' betsy (1977 ford f150 truck WITH camper shell). and i love walking down the road with leo as the neighbors are putting the new gun rack on the back of their ride. actually, i'm not being sarcastic. i really do love it. it's just one little piece of the world were corporate homogeneity hasn't quite taken hold. and there is nothing, NOTHING more beautiful than the stormy sky, mt. shasta shining in all it's glorious snowy white, and mt lassen just barely visible to the east.
but i'm soooooo bored. i don't say that often. the big excitement of today was watching my mom's xmas present "the roomba" vacuum the house. have you seen these things? little robots that look like trilobytes that vacuum without you? pretty gadgety, but cool i guess.
it's important to me to spend time with the family. and one of my brothers, and sister in law, are here, and i don't see them often. but the conversation always skims the surface, and i can't do casual conversation for too long without feeling starved. plus my dad's depression is starting to kick in, and he doesn't know how to take responsibility for it, so it can be draining. even if i do want to help.
i think i'm feeling a bit lonely. missing friends, wanting intimate company. still haven't heard from my best friend, who usually rescues me while i'm up here. hmmmm...what was that i was saying in my last journal about hoping that however you were feeling you'd have some space to just be with it? i don't seem to be taking my own advice. well, i know this is all in passing. a little holiday letdown. things are good really...everyone is here, healthy, together...
still sending my love out to all of you, and i hope you are enjoying yourself, wherever you are and whatever you're doing.
and if you're feeling lonely too, come on over! we'll go for a walk...the stars are bright tonight.
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rachel:
thanks so much, sugar, for yur nice comments on my set!! 
xtx:
you're adorable