tiffanylynn

So...as many of you know, I've been feeling like absolute shit lately and I'm not entirely sure why. I know hormones are a part of it.

I found out my grandfather (who helped raise me) is going to pass pretty soon. He's had a good life and he's very old so you know, it's not like he was going to live forever. But after losing my dad when I was 16 and dealilng with a mother who is pretty dependent on me, it's kind of a hit. I'm going to visit him really soon, I hope soon enough. I'm having difficulty getting the time off from work but I think in a few weeks I'll be able to see him.

My BF who I think just dumped me made it clear that I've been acting like a total bitch. I've been feeling really fucking shitty but probably too self-centered to realize how I've been acting like one. Oh well, not much I can do about it now since he's refusing to talk to me. It does make me sad cuz I thought we had a good thing going and I really do love him despite what he thinks. Maybe I was just fooling myself.

On another note, I bleached the shit out of my hair...it looks a little crazy and dready. I sort of like it cuz it looks so nuts but I've definitely gotten some funny looks I can't decide wether to chop it all off pixie style or what. This is longest my hair has been in years...I get to put it in pigtails and everything but at the same time...short hair is so funky and easy. Decisions Decisions

The good thing is, this will pass. I've been through a lot in my life and I will always persevere. My fire will be back soon to dry up my dumb tears and I'll be on my way.

So...fuck it.

Now lets see some fucking fireworks!