tidaltantrum

Yeah, girl troubles.

This is basically it...

"Awww, well it's a really complicated situation...

I know I love her, she says she loves me. We live several miles in between, on opposites of the city border, and for SOME dumb fucking reason there is zero public transportation between us, and calls are long distance. So communication and visits are difficult.

And then it doesn't help that she's the polar opposite of me when it comes to priorities. I'm a man of feeling, and if something makes me feel like my heart is afloat, it's my first priority.

She wants to get her shit together, so she works two jobs and goes to school. And she has these little breakdowns that are really, reallt upsetting to witness. It's really emotional.

But that's the thing, I would never let ANYTHING do that to me. If something makes me unhappy, I'm fucking gone, and in most cases, I destroy what made me feel that way to the best of my ability.

So it's more of a matter of schedule. She broke up with me because she didn't want to hurt me... But in the process.... Look at me now, right?

But I respect her wishes and I only want her happy. Even if it isn't me.

Just if I was in this whole situation, love would come first. I'd make sacrifices and bite the bullet to make it work...

But hey, she says "I might get another shot" whenever the fuck she's on her feet. Could be a day from a now, could be a year.

I really don't know. And I hate being in fucking limbo."