tiamat

dear pears,

day of family, food and love is almost here. i am always about the food. i guess you could say i have been practicing my baking for the last month and not that i am a big . as long as i stay in my preferred weight range then alls is good. school is finally done and i maintained the B average to get into UBC if i so desire thank goodness for last years success in my UVIC classes or i would be screwed. i think i have firmly decided to do my TSEL and then am considering doing my M.ED in Feminism in Social Justice Education just cause i can sound all smart and stuff but remain broke for eternity. basically i need to fullfill my grade seven's ambition to be a gold digger. a feminist gold digger... sounds interesting.
or maybe i should just listen to tangent_one and try not to stress about the future. i worry too much about school...too much about falling in love for life and too much about money. i need to start taking life as is.
besides spending my days criticizing my direction in life, i have been reading so much lesbian erotica. mostly about virgins getting fucked and so on. i wish my first girl on girl sex experiences weren't so dumb. first time i ever hooked up with a girl it was in high school with my first real boyfriend. he ended up feeling that his masculinity was threatened cause i ignored him and focused on removing her clothes. so as he cried i decided to postpone my girl adventures. oddly enough... and i know you are reading this stephen you fudge packing faggot ( everyone say hi to my older bro ) who reads my journals. the girl in question was dating my now gay brother at the same time and i had no idea. how icky and back woods is that? gross gross gross.

but yeah... hi stephen hi stephen hi stephen hi stephen hi stephen hi stephen hi stephen hi stephen hi stephen hi stephen. you are too busy freezing your ass in montreal when you should be here getting wasted and doing drugs with your lil sister. dumb fag.

i feel like i should be doing something right now... perhaps responding to people's comments from like two months ago and now that school is over i finally have time.

so to leave you with some cuteness...
here is me and my baby rogstar of doom: Clover!






baby with momma. she is so black it is hard to catch her eyes in pics




and ...


my supermodel rogstar!!!

lots of kisses.

tiamat

edited to add:

dearest bluebelle.
may you be at peace now.
my beautiful gray tubby kitty that i had since i was in grade 7 passed away today. my parents called to tell me that bluebelle was having trouble breathing this morning and they gave her ventalin and pulmocort. it didn't work so they took her to the vet who set up an oxygen tank for her and when they put a tube down her throat they found a tumor. she was so healthy and pudgy. she was eating even today. my mom thinks she returned from a year long adventure last year to make her final goodbyes. i feel so sorry for my other cat ivy cause now it is just her and a couple of dogs. she didn't even get her x-mas sock.