tiam

So, sometimes I royally put my foot in my mouth. Now is one of those times. I don't think of the consequences of what comes out of it until after the fact. Half the time when I get angry things spew out that I don't mean or believe. But yet, plop, there they go. I piss off the wrong people at the wrong time. I swear I need a dumb ass filter. I am truly sorry afterward, but that usually doesn't cut it. I really don't deserve what I have and now maybe I'm trying to push it away. I need to stop. But I want it more than anything in the world. I want to keep it. I just feel quite inadequate at times. help.....