thyestean23

"For all the efforts one can make to function in society...if they have such a need...I have to say that finaly picking a shadow and standing in it is probably the best and final choice. There is a pleasure in observing rather than being involved, responding rather than informing. Instead of wondering what im am suppose to say to you I let you wonder....I have nothing to say. I dont have to be disappointed because I dont expect anything from you...not anymore. I simply expect myself to be repulsed by your everything as I always have. There is no benifit in knowing why. I dont care and you only care because someone told you too. I have forsaken until there is nothing to forsake. I have given until there is nothing to give. In returned I have ben denied the only constant...change. Its time for me to stop paying. Though the world is turned by numbers the world does not turn me. Though the machine responds to orders and im not subject to the machine. The machine is subject to me...as I have already proven and as you already know. Honestly, the zoo is all that keeps me sane. Its something to look at until this ends. Until the unfortunte spike of genetice memory is passed on I am here with you doing only a fraction of what you fear.....but considering twice as much. I can image the limited, programmed minds see blood at this point...which I find amusing. There are far wost things than injury and death. I consider myself and overachiever. My impact, my gift is one not readily seen and impossible to explain, but its here...its always here and its always been here. Good luck."

-Max Corben
"The Gutter" files.