thyestean23

Its true. You cannot be right all the time. Some days you cant be right at all. There isnt always a correct answer. There isnt always a happy ending. Sometimes, as much as it sucks and as painful as it is, there is no good way out. In those times you have one of two options; either get through or give in. When you change, and it will happen, people can get hurt. I believe that, no matter how tough you are, few of us really want to hurt those close to us. A change of heart, state or perception always seems to bring a bit of dread as to the cost. Pulling away is a gut-wrentching experience that you must suffer alone. Your -other- is never going to relate or understand. Your efforts to explain it will only insult and cause even more pain. They are often focused on the -why- and -how could you-.....never seeing a reason, only the cruelty.....which is the very thing you are trying to avoid. You are the antagonist, except it. You could give in, but that is just trading thier pain for yours. And its in that moment that you realize that there is no real solution. You cannot change them and you cannot change yourself. You twist and turn in your own reasoning. You wish they wouldnt dig into you so....you wish they could understand. When they tell you who you are it hurts. When they tell you what you are its a slap in the face. Your attempts at dry humor become the crime of the day.....and you bite your tongue. They demand a defense, but you know the cost. You know the damage your truth could do....and silence is all you can produce while you die a little inside and harden your shell a bit more. The signals have been crossed for so long that there is nothing left clear......and you remember why. Its not distain, but misery that has put you here and you follow misery no longer. Its true. You cannot be right all the time. Some days you cant be right at all.