It was difficult I did not like what I saw. I had to strip down some elements of who I was . If you review everything you do as a transaction with other people you start to see the shape of things. So let me begin. View everything you do as crazy. Remember a couple of items in basic psychology . Crazy people believe they are the only sane ones also the inverse is true everyone else is crazy and your are an island. I was reviewing this concept today as I was walking the dog. I reviewed my thoughts and beliefs as both sides. My friends and family have viewed me as such. I am a recluse and am mostly alone. Self examination is initially wrong and considered false with this in mind that view can be swayed by the presenter.
So I review my text messages in detail similar to metrics in data analysis. Within my text I saw several disturbing patterns. Ok I will continue this line of thought later so stay tuned.