So my daughter and I survived a horrific car accident on nov 15th. Ive tried to pretend that I am fine but I am nowhere close to it- I think maybe a little PTSD or something. I have panic attacks going on the same road. I was hit by a drunk driver going 30+mph from behind while I was at a complete stop and slammed into the car in front of me.
My daughter THANK GOD suffered no injuries, i messed up my back and im scared to drive a little bit now.
Thanksgiving came early this year, I am thankful to be alive. The downside is that it made me wake up and realize I want more out of things. Out of the people in my life, out of myself. I have been slightly edgy lately because I just dont have the tolerance anymore for things. I want a partner who will give me everything of her, her body and soul, not someone who fights me every step and makes me feel like I dont know the path to success. I have a career, I make a great amount of money for what I do and I take care of my family- and I only ask for someone to let me be and give me all of themselves. I guess it was my fault being that I have tatoos, she never did or wants them and what I find attractive and sexy is someone who is interested in the same culture I am. I didnt grow into tattoos, piercings etc.. I was born into it and got my first tattoo at 15, same with piercings (although those are out for my profession I still respect their meaning).
Am I wrong, that this life changing event made me want more out of life??
My daughter THANK GOD suffered no injuries, i messed up my back and im scared to drive a little bit now.
Thanksgiving came early this year, I am thankful to be alive. The downside is that it made me wake up and realize I want more out of things. Out of the people in my life, out of myself. I have been slightly edgy lately because I just dont have the tolerance anymore for things. I want a partner who will give me everything of her, her body and soul, not someone who fights me every step and makes me feel like I dont know the path to success. I have a career, I make a great amount of money for what I do and I take care of my family- and I only ask for someone to let me be and give me all of themselves. I guess it was my fault being that I have tatoos, she never did or wants them and what I find attractive and sexy is someone who is interested in the same culture I am. I didnt grow into tattoos, piercings etc.. I was born into it and got my first tattoo at 15, same with piercings (although those are out for my profession I still respect their meaning).
Am I wrong, that this life changing event made me want more out of life??
hellocupcake:
I'm glad you guys are (for the most part) fine! A friend of mine hit a patch of black ice and spun several times before slamming into guard rails. A year or so later, we went to a movie with a friend and he did a donut in the parking lot which sent her into a panic attack because it was like reliving that moment.
thunderstorm:
yah im going through that right now, every time i drive down that road im getting panic attacks, it effing blows. Tonight i went out looking for twinkies (to resell since the prices on ebay are 50 bucks plus a box) and i nearly had a meltdown trying to drive down it, so i went to a local bar got snockered, then sobered up an hour after taking a nap in my car to drive home. Im petrified to drive with my daughter in the car, let alone by myself. I wonder if this will pass in time