So here the the deal.
I started new job this past week, I'm supposed to work 60 hrs a week there and still work at the bar.
I will have all my debit paid off in a little over 3 months.
My house is clean, but it feels empty.
I'v been staying really busy, blocking out time to think.... but it hasn't been working.
I was at work yesterday, changing a belt and tensioner listining to the postal service and i started crying, I tried to wipe away my tears and all i did was smear grease, now mixed with the taste of sadness and remorse, all over my face.
After about 5 minutes of tis i ran to the bathroom to wash my face.
The feeling returned today, i am glad it finally here. I had a good long conversation with an old friend and got alot off my chest, it felt good to hear my thoughts out loud.
On another note I gashed the shit out of my head at work today.
Its hard too see but it bled like crazy
I also cut my hair, I keep making all these changes, I am an idiot.
If things pan out at the shop I am working at I think I am going to quit working at the bar, its destroying me.
I think my cat misses m,
I know just how he feels......
I started new job this past week, I'm supposed to work 60 hrs a week there and still work at the bar.
I will have all my debit paid off in a little over 3 months.
My house is clean, but it feels empty.
I'v been staying really busy, blocking out time to think.... but it hasn't been working.
I was at work yesterday, changing a belt and tensioner listining to the postal service and i started crying, I tried to wipe away my tears and all i did was smear grease, now mixed with the taste of sadness and remorse, all over my face.
After about 5 minutes of tis i ran to the bathroom to wash my face.
The feeling returned today, i am glad it finally here. I had a good long conversation with an old friend and got alot off my chest, it felt good to hear my thoughts out loud.
On another note I gashed the shit out of my head at work today.
Its hard too see but it bled like crazy
I also cut my hair, I keep making all these changes, I am an idiot.
If things pan out at the shop I am working at I think I am going to quit working at the bar, its destroying me.
I think my cat misses m,
I know just how he feels......
lobster_mobster:
Stop hurting yourself, damnit. Sushi next week?
shy_violence:
Good to hear that you are starting something new, give me a call when you hit Davis next.