thislovemachine

Chaos is the mind's natural state. When a structure falls and becomes a mesh of emotion and logic, depression and a sense of isolation becomes almost overwhelming. But arising from the pile is something new and fresh, erected from the same experiences that we have been thru before. A new outlook on life, daily routine, and relationships in general becomes intoxicating and will soon succomb the person involved. It will take some time to adjust and become acquainted with the scenery of your new life. When mutual friends and family are involved, it becomes a little more difficult, but realistic thinking and communication will soon pass any hostility and/or one sided feeling of who is wrong and who is right. No one is ever wrong or right when it comes to the way we feel. I, for one, am always trying to rationalize feelings and justify uneeded tears. I have been striving to become in touch with those feelings and the point to become better and grow into being my one person who stands up for the way i feel. We all forget that when it comes to relationships, we are different in many ways. Each person comes with issues and the bases of the relationship is made up of being able to deal (because you want to) with those issues the other person conveys. Bottom line, when confusion with who oneself is, sets in, time is the most important factor that one can utilize to be beneficial. Change is inevitable. When the two work together and sometimes (this time) against each other, take a step back. After you take a step back, take another one. Is this something you feel, or are you trying to rationalize out of guilt and being a pussy? Time will tell...

Matt