thisisallwrong

xmas and new years was good, nothing really crazy. life is going good, stil just getting life figured out and together. i started playing my guitar a lot, seeing some friends i haven't in over a year. i guess it's all good in my hood.

getting my life back together, i feel like i'm becoming me again. i think i am finally learning how to be me, without the crutch of somebody else. i feel good, and can almost feel that motivation, that need to chase that dream again. call it luck, call it fate, call it what you will, but i don't think i can deny this instinct anymore....
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new home, it's mine, and i love it. working on lots of things, i hope i can live up to what i want.

i dropped almost 400$ on my buddy's 21st bday.

i rock






that is all

a couple of shows in the next week, word phantoms like a mother fucker.

they put me on medication, and it's not doing a god damn thing. it doesn't even help me sleep, like it's supposed to. Two roads... split off from here, and my life goes running in opposite directions. exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be. oh me, oh my, what is a boy to do?

two suicide attempts in two weeks. hey i might need help.

funny story,
since that last post my g/f of eight months broke up with me, through text message.
so much for in it for the long haul

nothing stays the same, or ever will. change is the inevitable cost of life. i try to change my location, i try to change myself, but in the end i don't decide change(life does.) i've gotten four more tattoo's since i was last on here, and life has hit me like a brick wall. i don't mind it so much, but only so much. i...
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Got postcards from my former selves saying: "How've you been?"


i had a crazy week vaycay in mich, visiting family and friends. spent too much money, drank too much, saw too many people that i've missed too much, fixed my car, and got my mommy back where she should be. it was good and bad all at the same time. i miss the home i...
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I will promise myself I won't care
distracting myself from your stare
and I've seen this mistake once before
with your games I will never fall for
I've hung up my guns
I won't kill again

You ask for my heart
you know that I'm down
but not the way you lie to me,
you tear it all apart and beg for me to stay...
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