thisisalladream

"i've got a reason to be sad and
i've got a reason to feel like i've been had.
but i would give most anything, to see you smile at me again.
i don't know
i don't know
what i'm supposed to do....
more than a memory to me.'

upheaval [aphivl] noun
a great change or disturbance
Example: Moving house causes a great upheaval.

tonight has pretty much been one of the worst in quite sometime. i'm not quite sure what sparked it or why exactly it came about, but it all sort of collapsed upon itself. as it does from time to time. it sort of came and went, then came again in...
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"And i almost love this town
When i'm by your side
You woke me from a long sleep
And i'm almost back
Closer than ever
To finding the hidden track
If i told you the truth
You wouldn't like what i said
I almost believed i was dead
There'll be no more waiting
You're gonna melt all the ice
In our heads
There'll be no...
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i have forever been in a state of coming and going.

constantly having one foot in the door and one stepping just outside the threshold. saying hello with a smile, kiss on the cheek, the whispering goodbye in the opposite ear.

you would think that this glaring fact of my life, this repetitive state i find myself in, would make my heart ache. it does....
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combine an increasing amount of stress, trying to remain busy, and pulled heart strings and you end up with one very confused girl with a jutted out bottom lip.

i suppose i'm pouting, considering the fact that my lip usually doesn't remain in this position for very long, at least not lately.

i've been avoiding a plethora of people lately for varying reasons. mostly having...
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i am currently stuck in the middle of things becoming clearer, yet things not making sense, still a little fuzzy on the edges i suppose.

i have had one of the best weekends i have had in ages and i'm not quite sure how to deal with that, other than just roll with it. i now know exactly where it is i need to be,...
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"Called long distance, from way up north
He said girl, you know I think we're so close
I think were gonna make it, when I come back home
I'll hold your hand, look in your eyes, say little girl, it's gonna be alright"

*goodness*

another fantastic but abbreviated conversation with someone who gives me butterflies in my stomach. a truly lovely way to spend my...
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"can't believe my hearts still pounding, can't believe how close i came. and meanwhile heavens falling..."

i must admit that i am truly smitten over a phone conversation, a hurried manner of speaking, honest moments under hushed breath, and most surprisingly, a like for all things Degrassi.





my *oh* my. head over heels i tell you, head over heels.

i have a job interview at 3pm today for which i am terribly nervous to go to. i really need to get a job, any job, even *this* job.

i really want the librarian job but i'm not sure if it's as glamourous in real life as it is in my head. most likely not, i'm sure.

i do, however, have a fabulous interview outfit...
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