thinkofsomething

i can't remember the last time i wasn't in this ethereal coma state. however, i'm relatively certain that i don't really have any desire to do so, either.
"i think i need to go to bed", she said. and
he either didn't understand, or merely acted
as though he didn't comprehend. either way,
neither of the two would ever be clear.

it's been a while and, damn it, i paid money for this; so maybe i'll spill some of my personal version of insanity into the vast web, even if mediated by this-sensational, trendy, erotico-syndicate, corporate whore under the guise of feminin sexual empowerment. ...but it's true; there is simply nothing better than young, beautiful, naked, girls. even i, in my 4 am delirious rantings cannot...
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today represents the re-introduction of the internet to our humble abode. i thought that i would mark the occassion with an entry here. however, i'm feeling strained to spin forth much more than a drab pittance of a monologue. -maybe i'll just touch myself to the latest set. hmm

the best i can muster
is amusement at my predictability,
when realizing that
i only visit this site when i'm high.
but i supose i'm no less
lucid or coherent now
than i am in any other state
that i may use to ennact
my innevitable confusion.

at the risk of sounding cryptic (because i was just called that), prophetic, and pathetic, all at once, but...
tonight i saw my death.
but it's so glorious!

...overloading on the good stuff. life is the embodiement of chaotic irony!

...waiting for my brain...
...waiting for my brain...

i dare you.

it seems like two weeks since my last post. but, it's only been four days. that must say something.

i realized, long ago, that even if some one had read that, they wouldn't know that song, or recognize that movie.

but here it is: the west is dead.

ditched two cars and everything i owned in Indiana.
then i came back here to begin.
and...
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gonna be,
gonna be,
your broken,
broken man...

p.s. -you know i'm training to be a cage fighter.

p.p.s. -i hate people who use quotes. (especialy ones from pop media culture)

p.p.p.s. -people who have saved my life more times than it is worth: Matt, Mark, Nik, Mom, Dad, and that part of me that is too much of a pussy to be decisive.

so, i know, i can't complain. things have been going incredibly well lately. but i'm terrible with waiting, and with everything but my car ready for my relocation to the west coast, i'm freaking out a little. by now, my sinusses are crammed with a rediculous mixture of foreign substances, and i'm not sure whether my body shutting down is going to help my state...
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