its been an odd week. i cannot even define it. just odd.
the last couple of days have gone on forever. the storm last night gave me that feeling in my stomach. fear and anticipation of its power mixed with the peacefulness. i slept like a rock.
today started like ass. over the last couple of days one of my jobsites needed something rushed from a difficult vendor. i can be sarcastic and cold in my dealings in such situations in order to be successful. then i came in today and got an email from site saying they found the stuff and i could cancel the order if it wasn't too late. i called the vendor and asked how he was. he said licking his wounds from the previous days business thanks to me and my cohorts. he asked the same question of me (not really caring the response) and i told him if there were a brink wall within 20 feet of my cubicle it would be covered in my blood from banging my head against it. he said he doubted that and that i seemed the type to be more apt to kicking a dog to relieve stress. i am not that person. and it didn't sit well with me the rest of the day at work.
much of my life seems to be just going through the motions. my latest philosophy on the inner riddle of why i am still single is this: i never learned to date. by the time i came out of my shell and learned (still learning) how to talk to women, i was in college. and unless you meet a nice girl at the library or in class that you eventually marry after you both graduate, the women you meet in college are a drunken snapshot of what you want them to be that night. maybe some nights after that. i opened up to a girl that i fell in love with in school. poured it all out. scared the shit out of me and it ended shortly there after. i don't know what i want. out of life. out of love. out of my career.
*deep breath*
volleyball was good tonight. we are still a fledgling team, and we had to play an undefeated team tonight. i knew it was goign to be a challenge, but i also knew we could take a game from them. and we did. my swing didn't click til midway through the second game, but it felt good. i got tattooed on the shoulder/neck in the first game. good reflexes or it would have been my grill. and i didn't turn the AC on when we got there, so we were all dripping sweat. i love that feeling. i earned that sweat.
just got done watching closer. good movie.it was the first movie that i felt it was okay to have a crush on natalie portman. clive owen played the endearing bastard so well too. just a good movie.
time for me to drag my ass to bed.
the last couple of days have gone on forever. the storm last night gave me that feeling in my stomach. fear and anticipation of its power mixed with the peacefulness. i slept like a rock.
today started like ass. over the last couple of days one of my jobsites needed something rushed from a difficult vendor. i can be sarcastic and cold in my dealings in such situations in order to be successful. then i came in today and got an email from site saying they found the stuff and i could cancel the order if it wasn't too late. i called the vendor and asked how he was. he said licking his wounds from the previous days business thanks to me and my cohorts. he asked the same question of me (not really caring the response) and i told him if there were a brink wall within 20 feet of my cubicle it would be covered in my blood from banging my head against it. he said he doubted that and that i seemed the type to be more apt to kicking a dog to relieve stress. i am not that person. and it didn't sit well with me the rest of the day at work.
much of my life seems to be just going through the motions. my latest philosophy on the inner riddle of why i am still single is this: i never learned to date. by the time i came out of my shell and learned (still learning) how to talk to women, i was in college. and unless you meet a nice girl at the library or in class that you eventually marry after you both graduate, the women you meet in college are a drunken snapshot of what you want them to be that night. maybe some nights after that. i opened up to a girl that i fell in love with in school. poured it all out. scared the shit out of me and it ended shortly there after. i don't know what i want. out of life. out of love. out of my career.
*deep breath*
volleyball was good tonight. we are still a fledgling team, and we had to play an undefeated team tonight. i knew it was goign to be a challenge, but i also knew we could take a game from them. and we did. my swing didn't click til midway through the second game, but it felt good. i got tattooed on the shoulder/neck in the first game. good reflexes or it would have been my grill. and i didn't turn the AC on when we got there, so we were all dripping sweat. i love that feeling. i earned that sweat.
just got done watching closer. good movie.it was the first movie that i felt it was okay to have a crush on natalie portman. clive owen played the endearing bastard so well too. just a good movie.
time for me to drag my ass to bed.
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thriftx2horatio:
I also don't know where 51 is.. awful with CLT Places.. if it isn't between uptown or the penguin, I don't know where it is.
tinypixie:
thank you.